Confidence

Bullied for being me

After watching the tear jerking documentary with little mix Jesy Nelson ‘odd one out’ it didn’t half bring back all the feelings of what happened to me.

Life from the age of 11 was not how I envisioned it to be. I guess starting puberty that early didn’t help.

I was pretty much the only one for a few years that suffered with acne which of course made me the target for name calling and just making me feel like shit.

I had even a group of so called friends turn on me and taunt me inside of school and out. Our phone had to be unplugged as they were prank phoning every time you put it down for about 5 hours a day of a weekend 😔 it was horrendous looking back

These would in turn be the ones who beat me black and blue 2 weeks before my exams. My prom photos weren’t the ones I wished for as my face was still too sore for make up.

It took a good 5 years to actually get them out my head and life. But I don’t know why it still happens daily to people. It’s just not called for and it makes me so fierce when you see people take their lives because of it.

Bullies are just insecure about their own lives and instead of facing their problems they make sure someone else is miserable too.

My advice is to never suffer in silence. You deserve a happy life so don’t be made to feel miserable in the process.

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  1. I’m so sorry you went through that Holly, there are some horrible people out there who didn’t want to see you shine like we all see you do. I think it’s brilliant that you speak out about it 💖xx

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    • I wish I could go back and do my school years all over again. My grades suffered and I would be a much more confident person, wouldn’t like all the hours at school though 🙈 xx

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  2. Sending you hugs. I too got bullied through both primary school and secondary and they were the worst years of my life. I wish that there was some way to stop kids going through this. Hope you are ok, xxx

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      • I think it has made me stronger and I feel that I have overcome a lot of things in the process. I’m sort of glad it happened back then and not now as at least when I was home I could escape it. With social media and mobile phones and all that, there doesn’t seem to be much of an escape for kids who are bullied in this day xxx

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  3. Bless your heart, Holly. I feel your pain because I went through the exact same thing when I was in school and it took years for me to heal. But I want you to know that you’re awesome, smart and beautiful no matter how they treated you. You are enough and you were always and still are worthy of love and friendship. And I admire you for telling your story. It brought tears to my eyes.

    For me, the bullying began when I was 12 and in the sixth grade, after I moved to a small town in Tennessee. I had been a military brat and lived all over and I just was not like any of them. I was brutally beaten on several occasions, called the worst names in the English language, and lied about. The bullies would also run smear campaigns to trash my reputation and prevent me from making friends with anyone else. I even had a few knives pulled on me and began to fear for my life.

    When I spoke out, the school only swept it under the rug and blamed me to cover for the bullies. Even worse, the bullies only made things worse because I “snitched”. Anytime I fought back to defend myself, I would be labeled a troublemaker by the school while the bullies went unpunished.

    As a result, I attempted suicide when I was 14 and landed in Intensive Care. I almost didn’t make it.

    My only outlet was to write about what was happening in a journal every day. The bullying didn’t stop until I finally switched schools during my senior year. After that, everything changed for the better. In my new school, I was accepted and had lots of new friends. I eventually found my voice, my confidence and my happiness and I couldn’t be more grateful for it.

    I kept the many journals I wrote and woke them into a book I finally published in 2017.
    I’ve been out of school for almost thirty years and I still see my old bullies from time to time. And most of them are still just as miserable, mean and bitter as they were years ago. I can’t bring myself to hate them. All I can do is feel sorry for them.

    You are a survivor, Holly. And you have a strength that most of your bullies will never have. Thank you so much for sharing your story!

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    • You are also strong hun as you have came through it and are telling your story too. It takes so much courage to do that. I’m sorry you were bullied, all you can do is pity them and feel sorry as they must of had something troubling them to be so evil… That’s how I see it now I didn’t back then. Keeping notes on it is sometimes painful but getting it out on paper is also like a form of therapy. Here for you and thanks for sharing with me xxx

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