Today i set off not anxious at all. Waiting to get on the bus in my electric wheelchair with Mum to go have lunch my head filled with fear.
I had been on a bus in my self propelling wheelchair and had no problems but because my mobility in my arms have been affected too i have to start using a electric powerchair instead.
It was the anticipation of would i be able to get on and off without feeling like I’m gonna fall out of it…I’m in control as mum can’t push this one. I knew there was people there to help but i don’t want to always need help i want my independence.
Well i managed to control the anxiety in the end and I’m proud i can tick it off as something i wanted to be able to do.
I am seriously thinking about writing a anxiety book as i have had 18 years battling it.