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It won’t stop me blogging 

Since I wrote my last post I was blue lighted to hospital again. With this unexplainable paralysis in my legs. Didn’t I feel pretty rotten and very much defeated.

After a week at home I had slowly but surely tried to get myself round the house using my walking stick and remembering all they told me when I was let home, but it somehow didn’t stop it from happening again. 

I spent the last 5 days being tested and trying to find a diagnosis I’ve been told I have Functional Neurological Disorder which can happen to anyone at any age and some factors have contributed to mine. Here is where you can read more to what it is. No doubt I’ll touch on it in a later post.

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I won’t let any illness stop me from writing. It’s been my passion since I could put pen to paper and it makes me happy.

So if my posts are not Monday and Thursday like I used to schedule them for please forgive me. I want to post them  whatever day I can, I guess when my body lets me. 

Don’t worry I will keep them varied and not all health related from now on.

Have a fab weekend.


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Learning to walk again 

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I was in the hospital a total of 11 days and came home 2 days ago. It’s been the most scariest time of my life and never want to go through it again.

Here is an update from my last post Hospital bound 

I had to undergo an MRI scan of the brain and then it was decided to do a spinal one too. Luckily it showed nothing untoward. They said your brain and spine is perfect…however it didn’t explain why my both my legs were paralysed for nearly 5 days.

Once my legs started moving again I didn’t know that I couldn’t just hop down off my hospital bed and walk about like I did before. I have to learn to walk all over again. I’ve had physio in the Hospital whilst I was a patient there. The only way I can explain is that my legs and feet feel like they don’t belong to me.

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I need support of a walking stick to get me around the house and it’s exhausting just going from one room to the next. I always thought that it was older people who needed a stick to get about. However , really couldn’t do without it at the moment.

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I only use the stairs to come downstairs in the morning and up to bed at night it is just too much for me at the moment. It’s a good job I have good upper body strength or else I’d be in a right state. My Mum has to watch me go up and down incase I take a tumble.


Something so simple as walking can be taken away from you just like that and I’m fortunate that I am starting to walk again some people never will. So my message is Don’t take things for granted. Things are sent to try us all.

Thanks for stopping by

Until next time

hol


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Happy Days of July

I BRING YOU MY

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I’ve definitely had some brilliant times throughout July that I guess can outweigh the crappy moments. So I thought from my hospital bed I will bring you the memories of my July.

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At the start of the month I went to see Dirty Dancing on stage with my Mum, my friend Jayne and her Mum. It’s my favourite film up there with Bridget Jones of course…if only they made that into a musical. It was fantastic such talented people and it had everyone singing their hearts out and quoting the best bits. A must see if you haven’t seen it already.

rainbowIt was Gay Pride on the same day as Dirty Dancing and even though we weren’t attending it when we got there we were right in the middle of it. It was so lovely to see the sheer amount of people supporting the LGBT community. I’ve never seen so much creativity. There was glitter galore and obviously plenty of rainbows and a few women body painted their boobs too. Saw no painted penises though maybe they weren’t that brave.

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My Best friend of 31 years Jessica also named Trev came over for a long awaited girly evening one Saturday and we honestly haven’t laughed so much in all our lives we were reminiscing about all the funny things we used to get up to and how we really haven’t changed still just as silly. We watched Notting Hill in between taking snapchat videos and had some nibbles and Trev got slightly trollied. I had one just to be sociable.

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This pretty little peach has been to visit a few times this month. She’s my youngest niece Daisy and she brings a smile to my face every time I see her. We have had plenty of giggles out in my newly revamped garden. Seeing her look at stuff we are doing and being so knowing. I can’t wait til we can sit and have a conversation together and I look forward to when she calls me Auntie Hol. She turns one at the end of the month. So got another reason to spoil her lots.

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Lastly, the sunshine days we have been having has lifted my mood up an brought out my freckles too and gave my a slight tan but nothing to write home about.

That’s it for July lets see what August brings

hol


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Hospital bound 


My legs gave way and I was stuck in one place for 2 hours. I could feel that something wasn’t quite right at the beginning of the week but just plodded on the best I could. Didn’t venture anywhere so I didn’t over exert myself. 

I can’t use my left side it’s useless at the mo and I’m led in a hospital bed trying to eat fish chips and peas with one hand. I have to go for a MRI scan in a few hours so I’m hoping they’ll find some answers to the reason why I went down like a bag of shit.

If I’m absent from my blog for a few days I’m just recuperating. Just bear with me.


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Let that shit go


I now have a place at the bottom of the garden where it feels so zen and peaceful and it’s simplistic. 

A place where I can take myself off to and get into the state of mind where i  can forget about the crap things that have happened and channel my positivity instead.

I’m not spiritual or religious but I’m all for getting rid of negativity that’s around you and not holding too much anger in for too long. It’s not good for you physically or mentally. What’s the saying…

‘LET THAT SHIT GO’

So I aim to go down to this humble place in the evening before bed and give myself time to put myself in a happy mindset ready for the next day. 

Think a pair of headphones may be needed so I can blast my panpipes/acoustic tunes and not get frowned upon by the neighbours.

What do you do to wind down?


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Good Moaning its Monday

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Oh my goodness really is it really here? I want the weekend to be here already I hear you say. I bloody hate Monday. Well, guess what…..

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For years and years the word Monday sends peoples blood pressures shooting up, as they dread the start of the week ahead. The weekends gone and its ages until it comes back around again.

Heres some humour to get you out the Monday blues…

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I’m picturing Rod Stewart right now but he looks pretty hot with his crazy hair so not every mullet is hideous.

 I guess that we can look at it as not every Monday is the same and some you will shudder at and others you will grow to like.

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You needn’t be in a slump for the entire day, starting a week on a bad feeling is just asking for a shit week ahead.

Put a smile on your face, a big pair of positive pants on and make a list of goals you want to smash for the next 7 days and stroll into the week with your head held high.

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Much loves and a Happy Monday to you all

hol


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Bye Bye Spots – Amazing Discovery

I was one of the unfortunate sods to still get spots way after puberty had been and gone and no matter what products i used over the years i was still having to find a way of covering them up with thick cakey foundation and concealer.

But the thing was it never got rid of them it just masked them.

I stumbled across the discovery after i had noticed the difference and i thought a ha thats why i have near to no spots. As i write this i have one very small one which is a definitely a huge change from the 10-15 i used to have on my cheeks and chin.

The hot weather came and so did my craving for fruit. i fancy when the weather gets better your hot food doesn’t make so much of an appearance and you opt for something quick and easy.

So here it is….

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Yeah a lovely juicy watermelon.

I have it every single day of late either for breakfast with some strawberries and blueberries or as a snack mid afternoon.

Here are some alternatives that include watermelon to jazz it up i you fancy

I have found out these skin facts about watermelon

  • Its rich in Vitamin A, B12 and Vitamin C
  • It hydrates the skin leaving it looking healthy and supple
  • The vitamins in it work as anti ageing 
  • It minimises pores and stops oil secretion and therefore helps skin clear up

I am not saying you will be spotless i am simply saying that its working for me and its been proven by many others. 

Let me know if there are any other foods you have tried and found helps your skin.

hol