Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection

I miss…

Things that are missing from my life that I wish weren’t.

I miss not being invited out, its nice to he asked even if you don’t feel well enough it’s the thought.

I miss those no longer here anymore, my big brother especially. All I have is photos and memories in my mind.

I miss being able to go out on road trips with my dad. Why did dementia have to take that away?

I miss being able to work and have a bit more of a busier day and something to talk/moan about lol

I miss being able to walk to town, or anywhere for that matter. A little bit around the house is as much as I get to do on good days, the rest is in the wheelchair.

With all of these things missing I always make the best of every day because I just can’t let it get me down, as I’d be no good to anyone.

Its not dwelling, just observing.

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Til next time

Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection, words of wisdom

Chill the F out

As I write this I have plonked my headphones on and put some acoustic music on so I can get into the zone.

So many of us stress out about so many situations there really isn’t any need if you just chill the F out.

Firstly I have changed my laptop screen photo to this kanako sketch.

Seeing the word Namaste always gets me into a more chilled state. It’s only a word I know but I totally think words are pretty powerful.

I need to help my mum with a few things before tea. After my tea though I will start to get into my zen place.

Firstly I’m going to light a candle, I got this vanilla marshmallow one from the body shop that smells devine.

Then I’m going to get my planner and get all plans I need to do for the week noted down. I don’t want to forget about the important stuff.

I may put a nice soothing face mask on and just be… You know what I mean, where you don’t worry about anything for that 15 mins that your face mask is setting. Yeah that feeling.

You may have a different way of chilling out – for instance: PJs, Movies and snacks.

No way is right or wrong just make sure you take time out of your day/week to unwind and chill.

I hear there is more sun on the horizon so go enjoy

Til next time

Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection

Day in the life…

I say day in the life, this isn’t a typical day it’s what happened today.

I had to get up super early as we are having our ensuite made into a wet room so I can manoeuvre about a bit as our shower was tiny and when my mobility is crap it wasn’t very practical. So the work men have been in since Monday.

Mum had to wash my hair over the sink in the kitchen this morning, luckily it’s short and doesn’t take too long.

Then mid morning I had to go have some blood tests as after the op I had they need to do it every 3-4 months to keep an eye. I’m also getting tested for diabetes as I’ve not been feeling full par of late and a few symptoms of type 2 are what I’m experiencing. I’ll let you know what that outcome is.

So naughty I know but mum treated me and her to a chippy lunch. We normally have one naughty day and that was today. It was really yummy.

My anxiety and chronic fatigue has been playing up lately so I took myself up to my room this afternoon and just led on top of my bed and tried to zone out… Bit hard with the banging from the work men but it’ll be worth all the noise.

Still wearing this smile at the end of the day.

Gonna say nighty night and I hope you all have had a great day.

Til next time

Posted in Chronic illness, journaling, lifestyle, Positive thinking, reflection

I am someone who…

For old readers and new i thought this would be an easy read and since its baking hot today it’ll just be what comes to mind, as i love to blog and publish on the same day. like keeping it fresh…so here goes

I AM SOMEONE WHO

LOVES : Spending time with others who make me feel alive (happy, giggly and loved)

HATES : Backstabbers, gossips and fakery – they are just the worst

CANT: Go a day without eating either cheese or chocolate…oh or mayo

CAN: be there for those who need me and perk someone up when they are feeling down.

WILL NEVER: Give up when my illness is trying to irritate the hell out of me.

HAS: Been on a rough journey through life (bullying, sexual abuse, divorce of parents, lost my brother and chronic illness) and still i smile though it all.

CANT WAIT TO: Get my writing head back on and write and publish a book suitable for everyone – self help me thinks

HAS NEVER: Tried drugs, i mean each to their own but it doesn’t float my boat or appeal to me in any way.

WISHES: There was a cure for Cancer and Dementia as its two of the most cruelest diseases ever.

TRIED: To learn to drive but i had bad anxiety and just lost all confidence. Give me a road with nobody else driving on it and i’ll be fine.

USUALLY FORGETS: what i go upstairs for, then come back downstairs to then remember. so annoying.

WILL PROBABLY END UP: that old bird with a pink rinse and probably a perm.

IS THANKFUL FOR: all the thoughtful people i have in my life, the roof i have over my head and the things we all take for granted like our phones and laptops.

Anyway, there you have it, i guess you know me a little better than you did before.

Til next time

Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection, words of wisdom, writing

What are you writing about?

From when you were small and you learnt to write your name….

Little did you know that you would be writing your whole life.

Though we all use writing differently.

If you are reading my blog and you blog too then you have a talent with your writing, or if you are an author I take my hat off to you too.

These 3 books play an important role in my life.

This is my journal where I write down whatever comes into my head I think is worth writing down and looking back at.

This one is where I see all the self care tips and those hacks and such like I put them in here so I know when I need some encouragement it’s in here.

Finally this is where I write all my ideas for blog ideas and of course my future book when I get round to writing it.

I write pretty much all the time as I adore it so much.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Posted in creativity, DIY, journaling, lifestyle, Personal, Positivity

A Vision, A Dream, A Reality

You’ve all heard of vision boards… The board that you can make with all your dreams you want to come true.

Well I’ve been doing it a bit differently with this little beaut…


When I am chilling out on my bed and pinning on Pinterest like mad I decided why don’t I have a secret board of my visions in life so a few weeks ago I started it.

Today I decided to focus on my dream house if I was ever lucky enough to own / rent such a place and this is the 12 I chose out of the 50 odd that are on my board ๐Ÿ™ˆ


I absolutely adore the colour pink so I would of course theme the house around my personality and that colour.

I couldn’t leave out the garden so I included that too.


Somewhere girly but also relaxing at the same time.
Whoever my other half was would have to accept my inner Elle Woods from Legally Blonde.

Apparently if you put your visions out there to the universe you shall have so there you go universe I would like this ๐ŸŒธ

Hope you’ve enjoyed reading.
Let me know if you have made vision boards/pages.

Til next time

Posted in journaling, memories, writing

My prom story – Throwback

I left school hell of a long time ago…. 2002 to be exact.

Round about this time was the last few exams and then prepping for the big event which was PROM.

So I had been beat up by a group of girls a month before and mum and me had bought my dress in a charity shop for ยฃ17.50 and i really felt special in it but because my confidence had been knocked severely it wasn’t quite the exciting night I had hoped for.

I was a bag of nerves, that feeling of oh my god I’m gonna barf on me pretty dress but luck was on my side. That was before we had even picked up my mates.

Got there unscathed and smiles when I saw all my mates.

Photos were taken outside the venue, this one above was me and one of my besties at school Soph. I didn’t have an ounce of make up on as my face still hurt from getting beat up but my sis did my hair really lovely so I half felt like a princess.

I probably stayed for half the night and then dad had to come pick me up because I started to panic.

I can actually say I went though and it’s good to look back at pics of everyone else looking gorgeous too.

This was our last day of school with my bestie Jessica aka Trev. Still besties now and I’m blessed that we still are just as close.

Thought since most year 11s will be going to their proms this month it’ll be good to chat about mine.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time