My Story About Love

Let me start off by saying that this is a little in-depth account of my love life… you can see how its kind of panned out over the years.

Ok so I seriously thought I was going to marry Chesney Hawkes, I used to change the words to ‘I am your one and only, please will you marry me? Oh cringe. I was only 7 or 8 I was still a little girl.  Michael Owen was another love of mine, I had a giant poster on my wall of him from my Shout magazine. Least I could go to bed happy.

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I soon went off the idea of becoming Mrs Hawkes or Owen and looked forward to playing kiss chase at lunchtimes at primary school. That was when I kissed David. He was my first crush. He was short-ish like me and I went out with him briefly at year 6 camp. That didn’t last long…he moved on to my friend instead.

Throughout school I had a few boyfriends. One called Tom and another Jamie. I foolishly lost my virginity to one of them. Through peer pressure may I add. I also experienced my first girl kiss too, i had saw it on the TV and thought i want to see what it feels like. I knew that I couldn’t talk about it as I was already getting picked on for my skin too. So that was just brushed under the carpet and kept hush hush.

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I left school and didn’t have my first proper boyfriend until I was 18. He was just like me he didn’t take life too seriously and we could just act ourselves without thinking we weren’t impressing each other. We met at work when we worked in a bar so when we weren’t working we would spend as much time together as possible. Just after a year he decided he wanted to go back to his Ex so that was a slight kick to the curb.

For a few years I thought I would just go clubbing and see who I could pull. Don’t frown on me I bet you’ve done it in the past. Some were never to be seen again and some were and still are friends. Just because you don’t want to pursue anything any further there’s no reason to not just be friends.

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Just before my 21st birthday I took Richard back. I guess there was still parts of him I missed and we just fell back where we left off. But during the 18 months we were together he totally changed. Like overnight, he started to be quite controlling and if I wanted to go anywhere in the car he would demand I paid for petrol. I didn’t like the person he had become and I had to get out there and then. Not seen him to speak to since.

I was in the nightclub a few months later and me and this guy Jake had caught each others eye. We swapped numbers at the end of the night and then in one text he said I am off to Spain for a week we can arrange to meet up when I get back. I wasn’t holding out much hope. He was true to his word and we went out on a date, saw each other every night for 2 weeks when he said would you like to be my girlfriend. It lasted 3 months. I was so happy when I was with him, the only thing was he would buy me everything and I didn’t feel comfortable being spoilt like that. He finished it quite abruptly when I had packed to go away with him and I phoned up to asked what time he’d be coming to get me, he said I won’t.Just like that it was over.

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From that day on I looked at love differently. I thought that it didn’t matter who you fell for, male or female you would find someone who appreciated you one day and they would make you smile endlessly and your heart would beat that little bit faster because of them.

I haven’t found my forever someone yet. I have been on dates with men and women and I guess the right person will come along when I least expect it. Just as long as i am not single forever.

Thanks for reading until the end… My hand hurts now from typing 🙂

hol

Question Time: Yes i have…No i haven’t

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ITS QUESTION TIME

I asked what kind of post you would like to see and a personal one was in favour so i came up with this one which you can get to know me a little better.

HAVE YOU EVER?

SKIPPED A CLASS: I tried not to make it a habit but sometimes i couldn’t help it and ended up going home at lunch and didn’t go back for the rest of the day (bullies didn’t help)

DONE DRUGS: Do i look that silly? Not something that’s ever appealed to me

SELF HARMED: I have had some low moments in my life as i have suffered with depression on and off  but its only ever been a slight thought never acted upon it.

SHOP LIFTED: I have only done it twice. Once when i was at my local sweet shop i put some sweets in my pocket when the shop keeper wasn’t looking, she must have had eyes in the back of her head cos i had to give them back. Second was a freebie on the front of the mag. Wasn’t allowed the magazine so i put the freebie in mums handbag. She gave me a bollocking when she found it.

WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE….

SHOW: I have two they are both oldies…The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air and the Golden Girls. Thanks to Amazon prime/Netflix for my Will Smith fix and Mum for buying me the Golden Girls box set.

FILM: Without a doubt it has to be Bridget Jones. The first one obviously. I have a few others that come very close that i’ll do in a later blog post. Bridget is so relatable,  quotable, funny and has some lovely eye candy too.

SONG: Everything i do (i do it for you) by Bryan Adams. I have loved it since i heard it on a jukebox when i was 6 years old. Now i am old enough to understand lyrics it has so much more meaning to it.

BOOK: The Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe by C.S Lewis. I thought of how magical it was the first time i read it that there could be a whole different world in the back of the wardrobe i soon found out there wasn’t.

WHATS YOUR OPINION ON….

GAY RIGHTS: Love has no labels so those who discriminate are the ones in the wrong. I applaud the LGBT community for standing up to the haters and not changing for nobody.

SECOND CHANCES: I believe everybody deserves a second chance but that’s it. No third, fourth or fifth. If you do you may as well have mug tattooed on your forehead.

SEX ON A FIRST DATE: If i was to have sex on the first date (which i don’t) it would certainly not turn into anything more serious than a one time thing. Love isn’t built on sleeping with someone when you only met them a few hours before.

DO YOU…

HAVE A STRONG ACCENT: Although i live in the countryside i don’t think i sound as broad as some of the people so i have that to be thankful for.

HAVE ANY SCARS: I have a massive scar from where i had my bladder operation. The actual Bladder stoma itself is tiny but where they opened me up is quite sizable but luckily my knickers hide it.

BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: I really do believe that you could fall in love with someone just by looking at them but when you get to know them as a person is when you really know if its true love or just infatuation.

I hope you enjoyed getting to know me a little better.

hol

 

When you know you’ll be best friends forever 

I haven’t ever met anyone quite like my best friend Jessica…funnily enough I call her Trev and she calls me Bert. 

We have been best friends literally our whole lives. Up until we were 11 we went to different schools but luckily our mums were great friends and we’d see each other at weekends.

Secondary school came around and this where we really bonded as friends. We grew up in each other’s pockets, I either stayed at hers or she stayed at mine. We shared secrets, made up funny words (still use them now) also we shared the same sense of humour.

Below is 15 year old us taking the mick out of our English teachers monobrow. Every time he started losing his temper the brow would jump about. It’s still a running joke now when we think our brows are not on fleek.

Trev went off to the navy for about 4 years and Skype wasn’t around then so funny letters were great every week I have a box full of them to laugh at.

We may not see each other every day or every week but most days we will message each other and know that if one needed the other we would be there in a flash.

Below is a photo from the end of last year and it’s one of my favourites. We still leave where we left off even if it was 6 months since we last met up.

 

We both live different lives but we are still best friends by heart and soul.

My special nugget forever.

We have memories to last a life time and to hold dear. 

I hope we are still best friends when we are grey and are struggling to hear 🙂 

 

Stages of a relationship (in pictures)

You look at each other and instantly fireworks spark, you have butterflies and yeah you’re in there hook line and sinker.

 On the date your true colours shine through and they think your something kinda special.

Life is peachy and you can’t get enough of being with each other. Affection overload. Maybe the L word might slip out. 

Then one day they say they will be round to pick you up and you are at the window looking like an idiot cos they stood you up 

The where are you call turns into ‘ i don’t think this is working it’s not me it’s you…no I mean it’s not you it’s me’

Of course tears will be shed they were the reason you smiled, the adventures you had,just them made you feel like nobody else could.
Soon enough you see them walking around with someone new, they downgraded and you can’t help but giggle to yourself.

As one door closes another one opens and guess what you will be head over heels with someone else 

and your face with your friend will be just like this…..