I’ve struggled over the last 2 years since I had my big operation with my weight. As I was not very mobile I just used to comfort eat to make myself feel better when in fact it was making me sad. My weakness is chocolate…still partial to a Diam or a Crunchie if I go past one in the supermarket 😋
so I have been on a weight loss journey since October and with Christmas most of the 6 pounds I lost went back on. So new year came and I thought let’s get my head in the game and don’t cave in. I’m 11 pounds down and now back in my size 10s I am so proud of myself that I’ve stuck to it.
Here are a few meals I managed to snap. I really do like eating my vegetables every day the fruit is growing on me…not literally. I’ll keep you updated how I’m getting on in a month or so 😁
I love doing a monthly favourites post it makes me think of all the things that made me happy that month.
Without further ado here’s Februarys.
The legend that is Bridget Jones…I have been waiting for this to come out on DVD as I was poorly when it was in the cinema. It certainly did not disappoint. Though it had a few more swear words than expected it was still the best rom com of this year so far. The eye candy was second to none too.
I had been looking for a handbag for absolute ages. I just didn’t want a plain old handbag. I wanted one that served a purpose and was stylish too. it was reduced from £109 to £28 so I loved it even more then.
Personally I didn’t want to spend nearly £100 on a FITBIT or an APPLE watch so while I was browsing good old Amazon I saw this TONUX watch. it does everything the others do and for a quarter of the price. My Brothers girlfriend liked mine so much she has one now. I wear mine everyday without fail and I am shocked at how many steps I do a day.
Even though I have had this since just after Christmas I have become very attatched to it. It is so handy for my blogging and fits in my handbag too. The picture quality is fantastic for watching Netflix and YouTube and you can also lie it completely flat and read a book on it too. When I want 40 winks I reach for these beauts. I got them as a present and I think they are pretty as well as being practical. I can add them to my collection of many.
MY FAVOURITE SONG
EMELI SANDE -HIGH AND LOWS
Its a very upbeat song and it has me singing every time I hear it.
What happens when you have so much to say and things to share to help your readers but it just won’t fit into a blog post. That’s where my new idea comes in.
I thought that I could include a monthly newsletter at the end of each month…
Full of things to inspire, motivate and make you laugh
It will start the end of march… I hope to get some people interested to make it worthwhile doing it
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Following on from last weeks post: Anxiety: – My Personal Story which I talked about my Anxiety and how it affects me I thought I would share some tips on how you can get through a Panic/Anxiety attack.
THE RUBBER BAND TECHNIQUE
This can be used in two ways
- Have an elastic band around your wrist when you are out and about and if you start feeling anxious give it a ping and the shock from that will divert your attention from the anxious feeling you were having.
- Go out and buy an elastic band ball and keep it in your bag/pocket and use it as a stress reliever.
THE MUSHROOM BAG
Next time you are in a supermarket grab yourself a couple mushroom bags from the veg section. It will be a very handy tool when you feel you are breathing a bit too fast and need to control your breathing.
Place the mushroom bag over your nose and mouth and do 6-12 normal breaths and really concentrate on these breaths as it will bring your anxious state back down. I use this method and find it very effective.
If you notice when you are having a panic attack your mouth goes super dry. Sometimes a drink isn’t always at hand. A tiny packet of chewing gum fits pretty much anywhere and instantly moistens your mouth and alleviates the dry mouth symptom.MP3 PLAYER / MUSIC
I have this exact MP3 Player and it is full of feel good songs old and new and i find that when i am having a anxiety attack i need an instant distraction and music always helps take away the scary feelings i get during an attack.
I know they are a bit old school as most people use their phones but this will be there when your phones battery isn’t.
PHONE A FRIEND
Put a few friends in a favourites folder on your contact list so when you feel anxiety rearing its ugly head you have someone to talk to and help calm you down. If you can’t phone anyone just put the phone up to your ear and pretend you are talking to someone and hope that your phone doesn’t start ringing.
These are just a few things that you can use as distraction techniques while you are out and about.
I hope that you can take away a few of these and use them when you feel a little anxious. Don’t feel that you have to suffer alone. People won’t think any less of you if you have anxiety they will more than likely be glad you felt you could confide in them.
I HAVE ANXIETY BUT ANXIETY DOESN’T HAVE ME
Wow I actually can’t believe how fast January has come and gone. I gathered together some things that have made me happy in the month of January and thought I’d share them with you.
Oh and I found this by the wonderful Ed Sheeran too.
Help me!!! My legs have gone numb…my hearts beating out my chest…I’m finding it hard to breath and I can’t swallow very well. I think i’m going to faint…no throw up…no die!
This was my last panic attack that happened only about 2 weeks ago. I was alone in the house and there was nobody about to shout out for help. I felt like I had no control of how my body was feeling and my thoughts were going into overdrive.
After having Anxiety/panic attacks for nearly 20 years you would think that I would be used to it. But each attack is just as scary and unpredictable. It could happen at any time and most of the time there’s no stopping it.
Going back to the year of 2005 I remember the most horrendous panic attack I had in public and it was in Tesco of all places and to this day it gets in the way of going about my everyday life.
Anyway on this day my Mum and I had gone in to do our weekly shop and I always liked to push the trolley so I could go nosing about and sneakily put things in I liked. But on this day it was the worst thing to be pushing. We were right in the middle of quite a sizable supermarket and I needed to get out ASAP. The shelves looked like they were moving and my legs felt like jelly, the lights seemed so bright I thought I need to get out of here before I make myself look stupid.
I managed to look stupid. I had slid away from my Mum with the trolley and I headed down the aisles as fast as I could, Mum being unaware that I was having an anxiety attack. I had managed to leave the trolley by the tills and leg it outside onto the bench and shoved my head between my legs. I was feeling embarrassed, scared and ashamed. Mum found me and her trolley full of food.
I soon learnt that there is nothing to be ashamed of having Anxiety and to not be afraid to say I have a Mental Health issue. There is such a stigma about being scared to speak about it but until you have experienced it you wont fully understand.
I am coming up 32 this year and having to battle with anxiety attacks on quite a frequent basis and having to plan everything around the anxiety and whether I am going to be ok in that situation is exhausting and my life is in no way normal to the people that are my age or even younger.
I struggle to go places alone, even walking to the shop on my own causes an anxiety attack so 9/10 times you’ll see me with someone. My 11 year old niece can stroll to her local shop on her own and it feels horrible that I can’t do it myself.
I had to give up learning to drive, even pull out of a first holiday abroad with my best mate all because of the dreaded thing that is Anxiety.
Life is bearable with little helping mechanisms that I will go through next week as this post is super long already.
Thank you for reading my story and this is only a snippet of it. i really should write a book i could definitely fill the pages.
Never frown upon a person who says they suffer with anxiety until you’ve heard how it affects them.
I hope you all will understand…
For the past few days I have bee feeling a bit under the weather. Not sure if it’s the time of year..something going around or I’m just having a bit of a crap time.
Either way I just wanted to let you know that I am still super keen on blogging and will be back writing for you very soon fingers crossed by the weekend.
Everybody needs to rest and I think it’s my body’s way of saying woah take a breather.
See you very very soon.
If you blog leave yours below so I can go check it out.
Much loves 😘