A Vision, A Dream, A Reality

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You’ve all heard of vision boards… The board that you can make with all your dreams you want to come true.

Well I’ve been doing it a bit differently with this little beaut…


When I am chilling out on my bed and pinning on Pinterest like mad I decided why don’t I have a secret board of my visions in life so a few weeks ago I started it.

Today I decided to focus on my dream house if I was ever lucky enough to own / rent such a place and this is the 12 I chose out of the 50 odd that are on my board 🙈


I absolutely adore the colour pink so I would of course theme the house around my personality and that colour.

I couldn’t leave out the garden so I included that too.


Somewhere girly but also relaxing at the same time.
Whoever my other half was would have to accept my inner Elle Woods from Legally Blonde.

Apparently if you put your visions out there to the universe you shall have so there you go universe I would like this 🌸

Hope you’ve enjoyed reading.
Let me know if you have made vision boards/pages.

Til next time

Be the real you and stay true

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So you are sat there in the tub, not feeling to great about yourself, about your self worth or self esteem. It has been knocked down by someone on social media.

Whilst nosing through your feed you notice that certain people are getting more likes on their pictures and you may think well i put in just as much effort in mine and i don’t seem to get half as much engagement. Feels like a kick in the teeth for all your hard work.

Please don’t sit there in a bad mood. It really isn’t the end of the world, give yourself 5 minutes of angry time and take these tips from me and use them each time you feel yourself not feeling worth it.

If you take my advice you wont ever get a down day again when it comes to scrolling through social media.

Much loves and always keep your chin up.

Til next time

A little celebration

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3 years ago I decided to embark on my blogging journey.

To be honest I wasn’t sure what I was going to write or if anyone was going to be interested in hearing what little me had to say.

❤️ Turns out I’ve shared my health problems and the ups and downs of them.

❤️ In turn that’s made me a more positive person and I love to share those positive vibes and help anyone out who’s feeling down as I’ve been there once upon a time.

❤️ I’m a right girly girl so of course there was going to be beauty and a bit of fashion thrown in for good measure.

❤️ If I have some tips to get you through everyday life of course I’m going to share. All have been tried and tested. I’d never tell you to try something I hadn’t already.

❤️ Love me a monthly favourite looking back at the month just been and what bits and pieces have made me smile.

❤️ Growing up I never loved myself so now I’m older I really urge anyone to love who they are and it doesn’t make you vain or stuck up. So you’ll find me always spreading the self love message.

Here are a few blog posts I thought I’d add in so you can have a nosey

HOW DO YOU BLOG?

20 THINGS YOU NEED TO START DOING

DIARIES VS BULLET JOURNALS

DISABLED NOT DUMB

DAD I’LL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU

MY ANXIETY TIPS

Also without all of you supporting me by reading my blog it wouldn’t keep me going.

Writing is my passion so having HOLZIELOVES is really an outlet for whatever comes into my head that I fancy sharing.

Much loves, you keep up your journeys too

Til next time

Be brave, be bold, be you

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Today I braved a bare face and then thought I’d put my new bikini on and show my urostomy bag too.

OK its only just peeping over the top but I felt confident and thought I’d take the opportunity while it was there.

I want to also say: Embrace your beauty flaws and all. You only have one body so appreciate it very very much inside and out 😘

Sorry its only a short and sweet post.

Til next time

Dare to bare all

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I heard on the radio today is world naked gardening day but since I don’t do gardening I thought I’d chat about just being naked.

SLEEPING IN THE BUFF

For me personally until it’s baking hot in the summer I’m fully wrapped up in bed. If you have a significant other then their body heat keeps you warm so that’s another story. Then you have making love, whether you keep on a top or bare all.

WALKING ABOUT THE HOUSE NAKEE

Admittedly if the curtains and blinds are shut it’s the most freeing feeling and keeping in mind who’s about in your house and if they are comfortable with you in nothing but your birthday suit.

POSING FOR THE CAMERA IN THE NUDDY

If you are into modeling or if you want to have some photos just for you/your partner with your bare skin on show I don’t see what’s wrong as long as you keep them private as they could end up with the wrong eyes seeing them.

BEING STARKERS IN PUBLIC / NATURIST

Well obviously you just can’t walk down the road starkers as you would get arrested, but there’s naturist places where people can feel free in their bareness and then there are also nudist beaches to sun yourself with no white bits at all. It’s something I’m curious about but don’t think I’d ever have the balls in front of strangers.

So there you are a totally different subject to what I usually write about but you know me, don’t mind stepping out of my comfort zone.

Til next time

Don’t be a miserable cow

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I have came across a fair few miserable cows in my lifetime and I’ve of course been one.

There are some things that get you in a foul mood and everything else just irritates the hell out of you.

But there’s no reason to bite everyone’s head off that comes into contact with you.

So do what i do / did this morning as i woke up on the wrong side of the bed…technically it was the right side as the beds pushed against the wall

  • Have your favourite thing for breakfast – mine was a cheesy crumpet and a hot choc…i know, i’m weird.
  • Put on a playlist that will have you singing from the time the music starts…sing loud and proud until the neighbours complain or your windows break.
  • Put the thing that’s made you angry on a piece of paper and then rip it up and bin it. Works a treat i’m telling you.
  • Get your laughing gear working…call a friend who makes you laugh or arrange to meet up. I always say laughter is the best medicine.
i am going to look for that 70s show now see if i can find all the episodes i loved watching it back in the day

If you don’t wish to have a frown lines on your forehead and a face that would turn milk sour then cheer the fook up.

LIFE’S FOR BEING HAPPY

Here are some funny clips that will have you nearly wetting yourself with laughter.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

The Plan

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I want to accomplish a goal this year, something that won’t just make me happy but will help others too.

So if you didn’t know i wrote a book a few years ago,my real life story called BULLIED FOR BEING ME (click to get a copy its £1.62 at the mo for the paper back). It gets the word out of how mean bullies can be and how back then i coped. It was pretty tough to write it as i had to relive it in my head but it is so rewarding when you have something in paperback to be proud of.

If i was to write another book i am tore between doing a self help book or poetry book as both would make me ecstatically happy to do.

I also would love to be an agony aunt, i would love to have a page online or on the blog to dedicate to helping with problems of any topic, nothing is ever too embarrassing for me to delve into but i have no idea how to go about that one. If you do please click on my twitter or Instagram below and inbox me your ideas.

I have so much to give to others because that’s just the type of person i am. So lets hope i can achieve my goal.

Deep meaningful quotes that give you all the feels

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OK. So here are some meaningful quotes that I know you will be able to relate on some level.

Looking at someone past their looks and seeing what they are really all about.

Know that number 1 is you and don’t put someone else’s importance before your own.

You want to conquer something but you need the courage to do it. Spread them wings, get flying.

Finding the right people in life that will make you smile, lift you up and watch you improve in life.

You need to leave the past behind to be able to move forward. I know you’ve heard this one before probably from many people. It’s because it’s so true.

It’s not plain sailing for anyone. You need to know that everybody has bumps in their path of life. Struggles are everywhere, it’s how you handle them.

And that’s your life lesson for today 😂

Til next time

Loving you is easy cos your beautiful

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I want you to really digest what I’m about to say.

We all have had those days when we really can’t stand to look at ourselves in the mirror, we don’t feel pretty in the slightest.

Do you know what?

We are human and having a down day is very normal.

But I want you to really think about the person that you are inside and out.

  • I want you to love all that you are, flaws and all. There’s not another you out there.
  • Take compliments on board, I know when I give someone a compliment I truly mean it and don’t just go round saying it for fun.
  • Have daily mantras that you can either say out loud or to yourself (for example yes I can) click here for a list of ones you can use
  • Give yourself a pep talk on the bad days and remind yourself you are good enough and you are worth it.
  • When you ooze self confidence you will feel a sense of happiness in life and your wellbeing will totally alter. Going from self conscious to self confidence will take time but you will feel the benefits of it.

Don’t ever doubt your worth, and don’t let anybody tell you you are anything less than fabulous.

In Minnie Ripertons words as I have titled this blog post- loving you is easy cos you’re beautiful.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Prepping for my operation

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I say I am not scared but deep down I’m bricking it.

So on Friday I had to go to hospital to get ‘marked up ‘ which means they get a permanent marker and draw on where they think my stoma will go to and how high I wear my trousers so this is what my tummy looks like at the mo.

On Saturday I had to have my last substantial meal but also 3 of these build up drinks called fortisips. Luckily I like the 2 flavours they gave me – Apricot and vanilla. I must say it was hard drinking them as they are like a milkshake but fill you up a lot more.

I tried to distract myself from thinking too much about it and watched a bit of eye candy on the TV – Micky Flanagan. I know he’s not your typical hunk but there’s just something about him 😍

Today’s Sunday and I’ve got to seriously get sorted because tomorrow is the day.

I have to make sure all is packed in my bag the essentials and mum said she can bring things up at a later date when I’m feeling a bit more human. I have to stop eating properly at 2pm and can have jelly and ice cream til midnight if I am hungry. The dreaded drinks I have another 6 to drink today and then 2 Monday in the morning before surgery.

I’m going to enjoy a nice soak in the shower as I dunno when I’ll be able to have my next one. I bought Bohemian Rhapsody on DVD so that’ll be tonight’s viewing before I attempt to get a bit of shut eye before my 5am wake up call.

I’ve got some scheduled blog posts for 2 weeks so I hope you’ll enjoy them.