Posted in Hair, lifestyle, Personal, reflection

I’m in two minds

In November of last year I donated my hair to the Little Princess Trust it was this colour, this long but straight.
If you ever want a big chop this is definitely something to consider.


Now I have this hair cut


There’s no denying that it’s easier this length to manage but do I keep it like this or grow it again?

Your input is gratefully received 😘
Posted in lifestyle, Personal, reflection, sexuality, words of wisdom

The size of your…

OK Hol, take a deep breath and type… So here goes

Whether it’s the size of your waist, your boobs or your penis. Does it really matter?

I have been on the slimmer side and the curvier side

I’ve had big boobs and barely there ones too

I don’t have a penis and never will 🙈 let’s just clarify. But if I did if I was a man I really wouldn’t be obsessing over its size.

So many of us really do stress over things like

oh no I’m a size 14 I used to be a 10. Or my boobs don’t look great in this top.”

It’s not your boobs it’s the top.

Embrace your shape no matter what it’s size is and appreciate all that it is and not dwell on what it isn’t.

While we are talking about your baps or your bulge. That special someone will love you regardless of size. So start loving it ❤️

Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection

I miss…

Things that are missing from my life that I wish weren’t.

I miss not being invited out, its nice to he asked even if you don’t feel well enough it’s the thought.

I miss those no longer here anymore, my big brother especially. All I have is photos and memories in my mind.

I miss being able to go out on road trips with my dad. Why did dementia have to take that away?

I miss being able to work and have a bit more of a busier day and something to talk/moan about lol

I miss being able to walk to town, or anywhere for that matter. A little bit around the house is as much as I get to do on good days, the rest is in the wheelchair.

With all of these things missing I always make the best of every day because I just can’t let it get me down, as I’d be no good to anyone.

Its not dwelling, just observing.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection, words of wisdom

Chill the F out

As I write this I have plonked my headphones on and put some acoustic music on so I can get into the zone.

So many of us stress out about so many situations there really isn’t any need if you just chill the F out.

Firstly I have changed my laptop screen photo to this kanako sketch.

Seeing the word Namaste always gets me into a more chilled state. It’s only a word I know but I totally think words are pretty powerful.

I need to help my mum with a few things before tea. After my tea though I will start to get into my zen place.

Firstly I’m going to light a candle, I got this vanilla marshmallow one from the body shop that smells devine.

Then I’m going to get my planner and get all plans I need to do for the week noted down. I don’t want to forget about the important stuff.

I may put a nice soothing face mask on and just be… You know what I mean, where you don’t worry about anything for that 15 mins that your face mask is setting. Yeah that feeling.

You may have a different way of chilling out – for instance: PJs, Movies and snacks.

No way is right or wrong just make sure you take time out of your day/week to unwind and chill.

I hear there is more sun on the horizon so go enjoy

Til next time

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Day in the life…

I say day in the life, this isn’t a typical day it’s what happened today.

I had to get up super early as we are having our ensuite made into a wet room so I can manoeuvre about a bit as our shower was tiny and when my mobility is crap it wasn’t very practical. So the work men have been in since Monday.

Mum had to wash my hair over the sink in the kitchen this morning, luckily it’s short and doesn’t take too long.

Then mid morning I had to go have some blood tests as after the op I had they need to do it every 3-4 months to keep an eye. I’m also getting tested for diabetes as I’ve not been feeling full par of late and a few symptoms of type 2 are what I’m experiencing. I’ll let you know what that outcome is.

So naughty I know but mum treated me and her to a chippy lunch. We normally have one naughty day and that was today. It was really yummy.

My anxiety and chronic fatigue has been playing up lately so I took myself up to my room this afternoon and just led on top of my bed and tried to zone out… Bit hard with the banging from the work men but it’ll be worth all the noise.

Still wearing this smile at the end of the day.

Gonna say nighty night and I hope you all have had a great day.

Til next time

Posted in Chronic illness, journaling, lifestyle, Positive thinking, reflection

I am someone who…

For old readers and new i thought this would be an easy read and since its baking hot today it’ll just be what comes to mind, as i love to blog and publish on the same day. like keeping it fresh…so here goes

I AM SOMEONE WHO

LOVES : Spending time with others who make me feel alive (happy, giggly and loved)

HATES : Backstabbers, gossips and fakery – they are just the worst

CANT: Go a day without eating either cheese or chocolate…oh or mayo

CAN: be there for those who need me and perk someone up when they are feeling down.

WILL NEVER: Give up when my illness is trying to irritate the hell out of me.

HAS: Been on a rough journey through life (bullying, sexual abuse, divorce of parents, lost my brother and chronic illness) and still i smile though it all.

CANT WAIT TO: Get my writing head back on and write and publish a book suitable for everyone – self help me thinks

HAS NEVER: Tried drugs, i mean each to their own but it doesn’t float my boat or appeal to me in any way.

WISHES: There was a cure for Cancer and Dementia as its two of the most cruelest diseases ever.

TRIED: To learn to drive but i had bad anxiety and just lost all confidence. Give me a road with nobody else driving on it and i’ll be fine.

USUALLY FORGETS: what i go upstairs for, then come back downstairs to then remember. so annoying.

WILL PROBABLY END UP: that old bird with a pink rinse and probably a perm.

IS THANKFUL FOR: all the thoughtful people i have in my life, the roof i have over my head and the things we all take for granted like our phones and laptops.

Anyway, there you have it, i guess you know me a little better than you did before.

Til next time