Since I wrote my last post I was blue lighted to hospital again. With this unexplainable paralysis in my legs. Didn’t I feel pretty rotten and very much defeated.
After a week at home I had slowly but surely tried to get myself round the house using my walking stick and remembering all they told me when I was let home, but it somehow didn’t stop it from happening again.
I spent the last 5 days being tested and trying to find a diagnosis I’ve been told I have Functional Neurological Disorder which can happen to anyone at any age and some factors have contributed to mine. Here is where you can read more to what it is. No doubt I’ll touch on it in a later post.
Good morning and Happy Monday, Despite the weather change to a dismal grey sky.
I haven’t been feeling too grand of late so apologies for the lack of posting last week. However can’t let things keep me down so here i am with todays post.
Whats in my pink chord Backpack?
I want you to bear in mind this is just the basics that i have in my bag at one time as a woman you know our handbags feel like we have bowling balls in them and have sooo much stuff we really don’t need.
As i love to write i make sure i have my great ideas notepad and a pen.
My boots floral Make up bag with my concealer, to hide my dark circles, my eyeliner and a pink lippy of course
I always have some sort of hand cream and The Body Shop Strawberry one smells so good and leaves my hands so soft.
I either have a chocolate bar or something sweet in my bag as i’m addicted to sugar and at the mo its Tangfantastics.
Something a lot of you wont have is catheters in your bag i have about 5-6 in my bag at a time as i have a bladder stoma so when nature calls i’m prepared for it.
Everyone needs some paracetamol in their bag for when pain strikes.
I have my Sony A5000 camera for taking photos of whatever catches my eye i like to capture things in the moment.
I am not a huge fan of chewing gum so a packet of soft mints it is. your breath is always better being minty fresh.
My purse was a charity shop find. It was brand new and still inits wrapper so i thought for £3 your coming home with me.
A pair of Sunnies as British weather is so unpredictable you never know when you are going to need them.
My Iphone because who leaves home without theirs these days…Not me.
My HP Stream laptop as a blogger its always great to write your posts up wherever you are and this one has a touch screen too so i can draw on it too which i love.
I been doing some thinking….and no this is not mine but i so would wear one just for times when i needed to collect some important thoughts.
I want my blog to have a variety of things as of late its all been a bit of a personal experience overload. So here’s the conclusion i have come to…..
Along the top of my blog you will see Categories and if you hover over them you will see some of my posts i have written. Here you will find posts i feel will be of interest and will hopefully help someone. Well i hope that with all my posts but its just something different i guess.
So each post i write will fit into one of these categories:
PERSONAL – BEAUTY/REVIEWS – POSITIVE THINKING – HEALTH – QUOTES –
WORDS OF WISDOM – MONTHLY FAVOURITES
I want to include tracks and playlists here is one song that always gets me singing and slightly out of tune. Good old Ed.
When my throat is ok i want to add voice messages to my blogs but at the mo it hurts to speak. All part of my illness i am learning to live with but i will try to record on the good days.
When i started blogging it was because i wanted a hobby. Now i really look forward to writing and creating content. Not sponsored by anyone and don’t get free stuff sent to me. I have thought about it and come to the conclusion that it would take the fun out of it.
What you read and the things that you see are all things bought by me and my own words.
When i was younger there were women i yearned to be like.
As i have got older they have become people i look up to and admire for all they are.
Here are a handful of the ones that i wanted to include:
My wonderful Mum – a woman who i want to turn after. Shes the most caring and hardworking person i know and my heart beats because of her and i love her to the moon and back.
Meryl Streep – I think she has been my favourite actress since i can remember. Shes a fierce and powerful woman and funny too.
Zoella – i love how Zoella has not let her anxiety get in the way of her dreams and shes an amazing role model to girls and women.
Ellen Degeneres – I really admire how Ellen has fought the haters who frowned upon her sexuality at the beginning of her career and showed them she can and is a successful well loved women regardless of who she decides to fall in love with.
Emma Watson – I take my hat off to Emma she is not afraid to use her voice for what she believes in and i love that shes so effortlessly beautiful too.
and finally a woman who is no longer with us
Cilla Black – I grew up seeing her on my TV screen every Saturday night and then my Mum introduced me to her music when i was a little older. She was such a wonderful woman who had a heart of gold and made me have a lorra lorra laughs (in her liverpool accent) and i miss her very much two years on.
I decided over the Easter weekend from the Thursday to the Tuesday I was going to delete all my social media and try and not be consumed by what was going on with everyone else and how the Easter bunny came…I know he’s not real cos if he was he would have delivered some to this chocoholic right here.
Don’t get me wrong I love being on social media as you connect with so many amazing people that lift you up and make you smile even on them shitty days.
I did find though that I was itching to go on my blogging instagram as seeing all their posts inspire me very much…but I resisted.
I was missing out on some amazing twitter chats and seeing what other people had put on their blogs as that’s mainly where I find peoples blogs who don’t have WordPress.
I really didn’t miss Facebook as I find that of late it’s lost its appeal and you can never go past one day without someone bitching about someone else…discuss that stuff in private not with the whole of your friends list.
Snapchat is probably the one where you don’t miss it if you don’t know what’s been posted…Mainly on mine people just post stories. I’m pretty sure there will be plenty more stories.
I just couldn’t stay away from Pinterest I had to keep myself sane by pinning all the ideas I came across and when I couldn’t sleep Pinterest was there for me as always.
I learnt that life still goes on whether you are on social media or not and it’ll probably be exactly the same when you go back to it.