Tag: journey

What a crazy ass week

All of you will feel the same when you think is this all a nightmare that we are going to wake up from?

First of all I was meant to see my stoma nurse at the hospital Tuesday but the transport didn’t arrive to pick me up. So that was a getting hyped up to go for nothing.

Then my mate and me were meant to meet up and go on a little shopping trip and that didn’t happen.

I did however manage to go speeding along on my electric wheelchair and go up town with mum at the start of the week. Nice to just nosey.

Then the closure of everywhere has taken effect over the last few days so everyone is either self isolating or being cautious when they are out.

All I know there are some greedy and selfish people out there when it comes to shopping for essentials that we need and aren’t there because of carelessness of some people.

Anyway sending love and hope you are all looking after each other.

Improving you #1

You are under no obligation to be the same person you were

A year ago, a month ago, or even 15 mins ago.

you have the right to grow.

No apologies.

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I believe that if you just stay in one place doing the same boring thing day in day out you won’t change, it’s pretty obvious.

Self-improvement is such a great thing to do and its so easy. you can do as little of it or as much of it as you like.

My advice is to do a little each day and don’t let anybody or anything get in your way. Set yourself goals along the way and reward yourself with whatever you like once you’ve smashed them.

I’ll be doing some more self-improvement posts over the month of March. So keep your peepers open to when I’ve posted them on here.

Hope your week is off to a great start and if it’s not, then make sure you change it.

Had a little bit of a break

I’ve been a bit quiet haven’t I?

I had my surgery on Wed 22nd of January and all went well.

I was home 6 days later.

I feel so lucky because if when they opened me up and all was stuck together I’d still be in hospital with more than what I did have done.

Even though I have touched on here about having a stoma bag for my wee I don’t want to talk too much about it as some readers may be grosed out.

So I have just started a 2nd blog that I’ll be posting on once a week talking about living with a bag. Some health tips too.

If you want to be super lovely come and follow me here at www.stomabaglife.co.uk

Don’t worry posts on HOLZIELOVES will still be regular. Just give me a few weeks if it’s slow to build up my stamina of writing again.

Love you all 😘

WHEN YOU BELIEVE

When it really comes down to it, you become the person you believe you’d become.

If you spend all your thoughts believing you won’t make it, you will never make it.

If you spend all your thoughts thinking that it’s impossible, it becomes impossible for you.

But if you spend your thoughts and energy believing it is possible, it suddenly becomes possible.

Doors will open for you, ideas will come your way. Your dreams will start coming true. You have everything you need within you to live your dreams,

But first of all you have to believe

10 years ago to now

Let’s take you back 10 years to the year 2009.

That January I had started the year with a hurting heart from being dumped just after Christmas. Turned out the bloke was a right dickhead.

I had lost a bit of weight in 2009 too after having my gallbladder out a few months before, so I was about 8 and a half stone.

Mum and me were also searching for a house as we had sold our house and needed to find one fast to move into. It was part of her divorce so decided to look for rented property. Just after Christmas that year we found it and moved in there in the Jan of 2010.

So now it’s the end of 2019 and wow what a year its been.

I started the year having my bladder out, and having a stoma, which has been quite a problematic thing so more surgery is needed soon.

I have found out who I really am, with my spirituality, my sexuality (I will fall in love with whoever I find attractive regardless of gender … Simple as that) and found out how strong I can be in shitty situations.

I’ve lost a friend I thought would always have my back, her loss. But also gained a really awesome friend she was in my year at school and I’m so glad to have her in my life as she makes me laugh so much and it feels like we’ve been good friends since like forever.

A decade ago

So this is a funny looking back kind of post.

So here’s some photos from that year 2009

Top left is my mate Johnny, middle left is my brother, bottom left is my best friend from school Soph.

Top right is my sister, then middle right is me on a night out and bottom right is school friend Katie.

Of course a throwback post has to have a playlist so this one has a few absolute bangers

I have to cringe at the next thing… Some Facebook statuses.

Clearly I was a little bit horned up. The two men were colin Firth and Hugh Grant. In my dreams 😂

My FMB boots, back then knee highs or over the knee boots were called fuck me boots. Funny I know.

I am positive in one of my girly mags I had read that fact about multiple sneezes were the same feelings of an orgasm. Maybe for some people but a sneeze for me has never felt like an orgasm ha ha.

10 years ago… when I was 24 I didn’t have a care in the world. Still lived at home until 2 years later… That’s when I really grew up.

I like looking back at my memories especially when you can have a laugh and reminisce.