Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection

Day in the life…

I say day in the life, this isn’t a typical day it’s what happened today.

I had to get up super early as we are having our ensuite made into a wet room so I can manoeuvre about a bit as our shower was tiny and when my mobility is crap it wasn’t very practical. So the work men have been in since Monday.

Mum had to wash my hair over the sink in the kitchen this morning, luckily it’s short and doesn’t take too long.

Then mid morning I had to go have some blood tests as after the op I had they need to do it every 3-4 months to keep an eye. I’m also getting tested for diabetes as I’ve not been feeling full par of late and a few symptoms of type 2 are what I’m experiencing. I’ll let you know what that outcome is.

So naughty I know but mum treated me and her to a chippy lunch. We normally have one naughty day and that was today. It was really yummy.

My anxiety and chronic fatigue has been playing up lately so I took myself up to my room this afternoon and just led on top of my bed and tried to zone out… Bit hard with the banging from the work men but it’ll be worth all the noise.

Still wearing this smile at the end of the day.

Gonna say nighty night and I hope you all have had a great day.

Til next time

Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection, words of wisdom, writing

What are you writing about?

From when you were small and you learnt to write your name….

Little did you know that you would be writing your whole life.

Though we all use writing differently.

If you are reading my blog and you blog too then you have a talent with your writing, or if you are an author I take my hat off to you too.

These 3 books play an important role in my life.

This is my journal where I write down whatever comes into my head I think is worth writing down and looking back at.

This one is where I see all the self care tips and those hacks and such like I put them in here so I know when I need some encouragement it’s in here.

Finally this is where I write all my ideas for blog ideas and of course my future book when I get round to writing it.

I write pretty much all the time as I adore it so much.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Posted in creativity, lifestyle, memories, mental health, Personal, Positive thinking, reflection, words of wisdom

We’re half way there

So it’s nearly the end of June, the 6th month of the year, half way through the year of 2019 and I think it’s great to look back and write down what things have occurred and how it’s changed you/ your life

So grab a pen and paper and write down the questions I’m going to answer, you’ll be pleasantly surprised

🌞 NAME THREE CHANGES YOU’VE ACTIVELY MADE ?

– I have cared less about people who don’t give two hoots about me

– I have gone through my big surgery to try better my health

– I have started looking into spiritual things and being more chilled than stressed

🌞 WHATS THE BEST ADVICE YOU’VE HEARD?

Don’t give up on what you love, on yourself and on those you love ( would I?… NEVER )

I guess on those days when you think why do I bother doing this, nobody cares, yes they do and the one person that it should really matter who cares is you,so stop doubting yourself .

🌞 ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE THIS YEAR SO FAR?

I’d have to say TRYING. Our family as a whole have been through the mill over the past 6 months so at this point in time I think that’s my word.

🌞 BEST MOVIE YOU’VE WATCHED THIS YEAR?

Without a doubt it has to be Bohemian Rhapsody, I adore Freddie Mercury and all he was. His music, his carefree attitude and all round from the film you can see he’d been through things we never knew. A true legend that will live on in many peoples hearts

🌞 FAVOURITE SONG?

SingridDon’t feel like crying

This year this song has appeared on the radio when I felt a bit tearful and it was almost like a sign to say cheer up, you don’t really feel like crying.

🌞 ONE GOAL YOU ARE STILL STRIVING FOR?

I want to make a difference to people who like myself suffer from anxiety so whether it’s a book or some project or I may even get creative and make some relievers ( they definitely help me ) so if I could make some for others that’ll be great.

I find a bit of reflection is therapeutic if you just let yourself go and just write ✍🏻

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Posted in Chronic illness, Health, lifestyle, mental health, Personal, Positivity

Prepping for my operation

I say I am not scared but deep down I’m bricking it.

So on Friday I had to go to hospital to get ‘marked up ‘ which means they get a permanent marker and draw on where they think my stoma will go to and how high I wear my trousers so this is what my tummy looks like at the mo.

On Saturday I had to have my last substantial meal but also 3 of these build up drinks called fortisips. Luckily I like the 2 flavours they gave me – Apricot and vanilla. I must say it was hard drinking them as they are like a milkshake but fill you up a lot more.

I tried to distract myself from thinking too much about it and watched a bit of eye candy on the TV – Micky Flanagan. I know he’s not your typical hunk but there’s just something about him 😍

Today’s Sunday and I’ve got to seriously get sorted because tomorrow is the day.

I have to make sure all is packed in my bag the essentials and mum said she can bring things up at a later date when I’m feeling a bit more human. I have to stop eating properly at 2pm and can have jelly and ice cream til midnight if I am hungry. The dreaded drinks I have another 6 to drink today and then 2 Monday in the morning before surgery.

I’m going to enjoy a nice soak in the shower as I dunno when I’ll be able to have my next one. I bought Bohemian Rhapsody on DVD so that’ll be tonight’s viewing before I attempt to get a bit of shut eye before my 5am wake up call.

I’ve got some scheduled blog posts for 2 weeks so I hope you’ll enjoy them.

Posted in Health, mental health, Personal, Positive thinking

Just breathe…Don’t panic

Over the last few days i have needed to try something a little different to unwind.

My health has been rather pants of late. My body paralysis has been a bit all over the place and my bladder is being evicted in a few months…you know back in the health update saying we were trying to dodge a big op…well it’s got rather desperate and am in need of a urostomy – a pee bag. So anxiety has been a bit erratic as you can imagine.

So i have changed the way i try to relax. Using a few apps on my phone

INSIGHT TIMER

It gives you guided meditation for all sorts of different aspects of life and i really like the timer part of it. You set the time and the sound you find soothing and away you go.

DAYLIO

If you want to keep a track of your moods and activities to look back on then the daylio app is great. As you can see you can edit your moods as i have and also the activities are editable too – still need to do mine. You can also add a little bit about your day too, like a diary. I like it so far.

Don’t be afraid to change bits of your routine to help you along the way.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Posted in Chronic illness, Health, lifestyle, Personal

Taking a few weeks off

Hi my wonderful readers,

I hope you will understand me when i say

I won’t be blogging until the beginning of October…possibly just before as you know i love writing about my monthly favourites.

My health as you know has been rather troublesome over the last few weeks and since i wrote my last post i have been home from hospital and back in. I am now at home trying to recuperate.

I feel like i wouldn’t be able to do my blog posts while not feeling full par. So if you have a heart please understand.

Love you all xx

Posted in Chronic illness, Health, lifestyle, Personal

It came back again

Sunday afternoon just gone i was really not feeling too grand. I hadn’t made it out of my pyjamas, but after all it was Sunday.

Mum was due back at 3pm but by the time she walked through the door tears streaming down my face unable to move nothing but my mouth and said ‘ Mum it’s came back again ‘

Off i went to hospital via the blue light brigade – an ambulance.

The full body paralysis reared it’s ugly head and i wish i could of shook it off but 12 hours later and it had subsided.

My legs have been paralysing every day but im able to move my toes and feet while sitting which is better than nothing.

The really crap thing is there’s no cure for this paralysis malarkey. If it does the whole body I’m back in hospital again until it gets the hint it’s not wanted and sods off.

I’m in a ward full of old ladies but i don’t mind i have them smiling and laughing most days.

Discharge date from the hospital i can’t wait as mums food is way way better and i can have peace and quiet.