Posted in Equality, lgbt, lifestyle, Personal, sexuality, words of wisdom

You can’t help it

I want you all to really digest this…

You can’t help who you are as a person, what choices you want to persue in life – whether it’s your career or something else. It’s whatever your heart tells you to follow.

You can’t help who you fall for, whether it’s the opposite sex or the same sex, religion or race.

You can help by being happy with what your heart or head has chosen for you.

Keep being you and staying true.

❤️

Til next time

Posted in creativity, lifestyle, Personal

Hey Hey it’s a Q and A

I thought to finish off my week of blogging everyday I’d do a quick Q and A and then those of you that are new-ish followers can get to know me better

So let’s jump on in with the questions – some random some deep

  • Do you prefer to write with black or blue pen? Black it’s looks professional.
  • Would you rather live in the city or the country? The countryside it’s peaceful.
  • What was your favourite book as a child? The lion, witch and the wardrobe.
  • Which would you chose bath or shower? Bath, you can relax and unwind.
  • What’s your favourite item of clothing? My black suede ankle boots.
  • Do you have a favourite scent? Loverdose by Diesel – it smells bloody gorgeous.

  • Would you consider yourself a romantic? Very much so, love hugs and kisses.
  • Do you miss someone at the moment? Yes my brother who’s in heaven .
  • Have you met anyone famous? Yes Paul Hollywood 3 years ago, very yum.
  • Do you keep a diary or a journal? I keep both I love documenting stuff.
  • Describe yourself in one word? Talkative – since i could talk. My poor parents.
  • Which decade would you like to live in? The 60s, fab style and music.

  • What’s your favourite app to use? Pinterest of course, it’s so addictive.
  • What do you spend way too much money on? Skincare, want baby soft skin.
  • What event small or large changed your life? Being bullied made me stronger.
  • What is your dream career? A motivational speaker – share my experiences.
  • What’s your sexual orientation? I love who my heart chooses simple as that

If you reached here on a Sunday night without falling asleep well done you.

Roll on next week, hope yours is fab. I’ll see you in my next post.

Til then

Posted in Chronic illness, Health, lifestyle, Personal

What a scary experience

I’m currently writing to you from a hospital bed.

Friday morning i wasn’t feeling right, not poorly just a bit spaced out at times but thought nothing of it.

Then just before midnight on friday evening i was sat with my friend in my room and my vision started to go funny, i was staring almost like what happens before a seizure. My speech went slurred and within minutes my whole body was paralysed. An ambulance was called and there within 10 minutes.

I was so scared, i could hear everything but couldn’t open my eyes. It was like i was locked in my own body.

By 5am Saturday morning i could open my eyes,move my head, my mouth and my fingers. But i felt so helpless. I was being fed my breakfast and lunch. I wanted to just be able to do it myself.

At 4pm Saturday afternoon all that was paralysed was my right leg so i was able to move about in bed more freely.

However this morning i have been awake an hour and both legs are paralysed. This i am used to but i am petrified that the full body paralysis will happen again and what if I’m on my own?

I will be back regularly blogging when I’m back home having bed rest. I thought i would keep you all updated.

Posted in lifestyle, Personal, Quotes, Relationship

When friends turn toxic

Those friends who say they will be there for you in good times and bad, then when the going gets tough they are nowhere to be seen. If you don’t phone/text them they couldn’t give two hoots what your up to or how you’re doing.

There are also the friends that are nice to your face and bitch about you to others behind your back. You don’t need them, even if you have been friends for years. Friends don’t do that.

Here is a list of toxic people you need to eliminate from your life to make it better for you:

  1. Those who spread negativity
  2. Those who criticize you all the time
  3. Those who waste your time
  4. Those who are jealous
  5. Those who play the victim
  6. Those who don’t care
  7. Those who are self-centred
  8. Those that keep disappointing you

 

You need to look after yourself and if those people are more of a hindrance than help then you need to say bye-bye. Don’t think you are a horrible person because you’re anything but.

You can choose where you want those memories of them to go, to forget and bin them or to keep them stored away, the choice is yours.

I’ve always been taught to treat people as I want to be treated.

Posted in lifestyle, Personal, Positive thinking, Positivity, Quotes, words of wisdom, writing

Chase your dreams

you are sat there and a Eureka moment happens, or you wake up and have the most wonderful idea running through your mind at a thousand miles an hour.

Quick, grab a pen and paper and get it down on there before it vanishes into thin air.

Put down as much detail as you can about your dream and plan on making it a reality. You know dreams don’t come true if you don’t put in a little effort. If only it was that easy

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I am working towards one of my dreams right now. I am writing my second book. I already wrote one about my bullying at school/ a few years after. This time it’s going to be a poetry book as I absolutely love words with meaning. It’s going to be relatable to almost everyone hopefully. I am in the planning process so will keep you updated as I work towards achieving my dream.

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Don’t let them pass you by. Your dream was given to you for a reason.

Of course, if they were bad dreams please don’t chase those, let them bugger off into nothingness. Only the good ones deserve your time.

In Gabrielle’s words….dreams can come true

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time…

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Posted in blog, lifestyle, Personal, Positivity

What a lovely weekend

Although the weather wasn’t too great i managed to enjoy my weekend.

It started off with a visit from my future sister-in-law Kerry and my cute niece Daisy.

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We had some entertainment with all the songs that Daisy is learning at nursery. Shes only 1 and a half I can’t get over how she remembers things and she pronounces my name beautifully now which totally makes me smile.

On Saturday evening I was invited out for a few drinks with some friends as there was some music on at our local pub. It was an excuse to dress up a little. Typical woman I dressed all in black all apart from my boots, which were these pink beauties.

I really had a good time and to top it off at the end of the night i had some cheese and chips. Haven’t had them in years but the takeaway was still open on the journey home so it was rude not to.

It was nice to go out and nobody made me feel crap about being in a wheelchair. Makes me feel more comfortable about going out again of a Friday or Saturday night.

Sunday was a nice pj day with some cheesy films on Netflix and Amazon prime video.

The only downside to the weekend was a biggish spot decided to land on my chin. Never mind that’s what concealer is for.

Hope you all had an awesome weekend

Posted in Chronic illness, Health, lifestyle, Personal, Relationship

Dad I’ll never give up on you

A year ago I wrote Don’t forget me and it was very hard to write as it’s about my dear Dad who suffers from Vascular Dementia which is when its progressive and really takes a hold of the sufferer.

I now write about him again as in that time period I had only seen him once and it’s been heartbreaking.

Since my dad left my Mum 12 years ago he has been controlled by the person he went off with. Before he got ill in 2011 he would have to sneak behind her back to come see his 4 children.

We never get told if Dad is in hospital and she never answers the phone when we attempt to ring. I know he hasn’t forgot me because on Saturday I managed to find out from the hospital I was a patient in that dad was in there. So for about 15 mins I could have a loving Father and Daughter chinwag.

It may be the last time I see him because I went against his partner but she needs to remember he’s my Dad and was in my life before he was in hers.

I’ll never give up on him. He brought me into this world and I intend on not letting someone dictate to me when I can see my number one man.

Please fight for the people you love, they are worth fighting for.

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