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It won’t stop me blogging 

Since I wrote my last post I was blue lighted to hospital again. With this unexplainable paralysis in my legs. Didn’t I feel pretty rotten and very much defeated.

After a week at home I had slowly but surely tried to get myself round the house using my walking stick and remembering all they told me when I was let home, but it somehow didn’t stop it from happening again. 

I spent the last 5 days being tested and trying to find a diagnosis I’ve been told I have Functional Neurological Disorder which can happen to anyone at any age and some factors have contributed to mine. Here is where you can read more to what it is. No doubt I’ll touch on it in a later post.

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I won’t let any illness stop me from writing. It’s been my passion since I could put pen to paper and it makes me happy.

So if my posts are not Monday and Thursday like I used to schedule them for please forgive me. I want to post them  whatever day I can, I guess when my body lets me. 

Don’t worry I will keep them varied and not all health related from now on.

Have a fab weekend.


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Learning to walk again 

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I was in the hospital a total of 11 days and came home 2 days ago. It’s been the most scariest time of my life and never want to go through it again.

Here is an update from my last post Hospital bound 

I had to undergo an MRI scan of the brain and then it was decided to do a spinal one too. Luckily it showed nothing untoward. They said your brain and spine is perfect…however it didn’t explain why my both my legs were paralysed for nearly 5 days.

Once my legs started moving again I didn’t know that I couldn’t just hop down off my hospital bed and walk about like I did before. I have to learn to walk all over again. I’ve had physio in the Hospital whilst I was a patient there. The only way I can explain is that my legs and feet feel like they don’t belong to me.

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I need support of a walking stick to get me around the house and it’s exhausting just going from one room to the next. I always thought that it was older people who needed a stick to get about. However , really couldn’t do without it at the moment.

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I only use the stairs to come downstairs in the morning and up to bed at night it is just too much for me at the moment. It’s a good job I have good upper body strength or else I’d be in a right state. My Mum has to watch me go up and down incase I take a tumble.


Something so simple as walking can be taken away from you just like that and I’m fortunate that I am starting to walk again some people never will. So my message is Don’t take things for granted. Things are sent to try us all.

Thanks for stopping by

Until next time

hol


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What’s in my bag

Good morning and Happy Monday,  Despite the weather change to a dismal grey sky.

I haven’t been feeling too grand of late so apologies for the lack of posting last week. However can’t let things keep me down so here i am with todays post.

Whats in my pink chord Backpack?

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I want you to bear in mind this is just the basics that i have in my bag at one time as a woman you know our handbags feel like we have bowling balls in them and have sooo much stuff we really don’t need.

  • As i love to write i make sure i have my great ideas notepad and a pen.
  • My boots floral Make up bag with my concealer, to hide my dark circles, my eyeliner and a pink lippy of course
  • I always have some sort of hand cream and The Body Shop Strawberry one smells so good and leaves my hands so soft.
  • I either have a chocolate bar or something sweet in my bag as i’m addicted to sugar and at the mo its Tangfantastics.
  • Something a lot of you wont have is catheters in your bag i have about 5-6 in my bag at a time as i have a bladder stoma so when nature calls i’m prepared for it.
  • Everyone needs some paracetamol in their bag for when pain strikes.
  • I have my Sony A5000 camera for taking photos of whatever catches my eye i like to capture things in the moment.
  • I am not a huge fan of chewing gum so a packet of soft mints it is. your breath is always better being minty fresh.
  • My purse was a charity shop find. It was brand new and still inits wrapper so i thought for £3 your coming home with me.
  • A pair of Sunnies as British weather is so unpredictable you never know when you are going to need them.
  • My Iphone because who leaves home without theirs these days…Not me.
  • My HP Stream laptop as a blogger its always great to write your posts up wherever you are and this one has a touch screen too so i can draw on it too which i love.

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10 Ways To Body Confidence

One aim i want you to strive for this summer and carry on the rest of your life is this…   Body Confidence 

These 10 ways will help you on your way and if you put them into action you soon wont need to look at the list to see what needs to be done to achieve it because you will have it.

Lets get into them…

  • Appreciate all that your body can do – It gets up in the morning, it feeds you, you walk around and you exercise it. Be thankful that yours works as some peoples do not.

 

  • Keep a top 10 list of things you like about yourself -Things that aren’t related to how much you weigh or what you look like. So we are looking at your beautiful inside. I will do a blog post on this topic soon.

 

  • Remind yourself that Beauty is not only skin deep – Those so called perfect pictures you see on Instagram that have most likely been edited and staged to hell. You are much more than that. Beauty shouldn’t be taken at face value.

 

  • Look at yourself as a whole person and don’t just focus on one body part. Loving the whole of you is so much better

 

  • Surround yourself with positive people – Those people that lift you up and think your a fabulous human being those are the people you want in your life. The others you just gotta wave bye bye to.

 

  • Shut down the voices that tell you that you are not perfect – Whoever invented that word was silly as people strive to be perfect and hate themselves for not measuring up to someone else. You be you and let them be them.

 

  • Wear clothes that are comfortable and make you feel good – Theres no point putting on those 5 inch heels because you saw them on someone else and they rocked them if you can’t walk in them and you don’t usually wear them. Have your own unique style and own it.

 

  • Look at social media / magazines in a constructive and positive way – Don’t slate the photos of females you think aren’t owning their look if you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say it at all. Us women were born to build each other up not tear each other down.

 

  • Do something nice for yourself and let your body know its appreciated – Buy it some new clothes or give it a nice soak in the bath with some bubbles. Every body loves a good pampering i know mine does . Love your body.

 

  • Send out a good message to others doubting their body – There are so many of us that are looking for body confidence and once you have got yours you can help others as well.

Don’t forget these 10 write them down, share them and use them.

hol

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Currently Loving: June Edition

Here we are again the time of the month where i get to reflect on my Monthly Favourites

June you have bought me sun, a little tan and laughter along with these things below.

READING

While sorting though my chest of drawers i came across these antique diaries…shamefully mine. They are my school years so it was funny to see who i fancied and what my writing style was like. Check out the cosmopolitan freebie.

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WATCHING

All my illnesses have made themselves quite apparent this month so i have spent a few days in bed and YouTube never disappoints when i need cheering up.

I stumbled across this one of Carlton off The Fresh Prince it sure made me smile.

EATING

By now you should know that i have a bit of a sweet tooth and back when i was younger my Nan always liked Malt Loaf and i was a bit partial to it too. Sadly my Nan isn’t around to enjoy these snack packs that Morrisons have. Every time i open the cupboard and see these i think ‘Nans Favourite’ and now they are mine too.



WRITING

At the moment i am just concentrating on my blog and filling up my notepad with ideas and the odd poem happens to come to mind and i quickly jot it down before i forget. Maybe in the coming months i may plan on writing another book. Who knows?



WEARING

The flower crown came out when we had our mini heatwave and it is festival season so i was getting into the spirit of it and having my own since the crowds at them scare me shitless. The sunnies are an everyday accessory now Summer is here whether they are on my head or my face.

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LISTENING

I have only recently found this Summer Throwback playlist. There are so many that when they come on i’m like ‘I love this one’

Scroll down and have a nosey see which ones you like too.

Apologies If you are reading this on the laptop and see that the playlist isn’t central. I need to figure out how to do it.

QUOTE OF THE MONTH

So many quotes i’ve seen on Pinterest but i thought since its the beginning of the Summer it was quite fitting.


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Oh great, its bloody raining as i end this post…Never mind roll on July. Only a few days away.

hol


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What i plan to do with my blog

I been doing some thinking….and no this is not mine but i so would wear one just for times when i needed to collect some important thoughts.

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I want my blog to have a variety of things as of late its all been a bit of a personal experience overload. So here’s the conclusion i have come to…..


  • Along the top of my blog you will see Categories and if you hover over them you will see some of my posts i have written. Here you will find posts i feel will be of interest and will hopefully help someone. Well i hope that with all my posts but its just something different i guess.

So each post i write will fit into one of these categories:

PERSONAL – BEAUTY/REVIEWS – POSITIVE THINKING – HEALTH – QUOTES –

WORDS OF WISDOM – MONTHLY FAVOURITES


  • I want to include tracks and playlists here is one song that always gets me singing and slightly out of tune. Good old Ed.

ED SHEERAN – GALWAY GIRL

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  • When my throat is ok i want to add voice messages to my blogs but at the mo it hurts to speak. All part of my illness i am learning to live with but i will try to record on the good days.

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  • When i started blogging it was because i wanted a hobby. Now i really look forward to writing and creating content. Not sponsored by anyone and don’t get free stuff sent to me. I have thought about it and come to the conclusion that it would take the fun out of it.

What you read and the things that you see are all things bought by me and my own words.

stay true

Much love and here’s to a fantastic week…

hol


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Currently loving: May Edition

Its the last day of May so i thought i would do the same as last month and do a currently loving.

So without further ado here is a nosey at whats made me happy during May.

Reading…..

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Tequila and teabags is a new read for me but i can tell its going to be a fav for sure it has been written so relatable to many twenty somethings facing life changing choices its a story not a self help book i can’t wait to find out what happens.

Watching….

i am absolutely loving YouTube and  these three totally different girls are the videos i’m binge watching at the moment.

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Eating…

You guessed it i have a chocolate favourite again. its not going to be one for much longer as i’ve over indulged this month and put on 4 pounds. So next months WILL NOT be chocolate. But these are so bloody yummy and i’ve always been a fan of Turkish Delights.

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Writing…

As you know i love to write in any form and i wrote a poem for my mums birthday and this was it, may i add she cried. Bless her.

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Wearing…

i haven’t found anything so pretty and comfy at the same time until now i have a pair of pom pom sandals from Primark of all places and for £10 i wish they did this style if shoe in every colour my feet felt so supportive.

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Listening to…

I have always loved Miley Cyrus ever since Hannah Montana and when i heard her new song i was like yes the old Miley is back and she hasn’t failed to impress. It’s beautiful.

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Click on pic to listen on YouTube its been listened to 98,000,000 times. Not all by me 🙂

Quote of the month…
This has to be one of the most touching quotes to a creative soul like myself and many of you of course from the legendary Robin Williams.

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