When it really comes down to it, you become the person you believe you’d become.
If you spend all your thoughts believing you won’t make it, you will never make it.
If you spend all your thoughts thinking that it’s impossible, it becomes impossible for you.
But if you spend your thoughts and energy believing it is possible, it suddenly becomes possible.
Doors will open for you, ideas will come your way. Your dreams will start coming true. You have everything you need within you to live your dreams,
But first of all you have to believe
Welcome to the year 2020, I hope you started yours off positively.
I thought I’d let you know a few things about how Holzieloves.co.uk is going to be this coming year.
In just under 3 weeks I am down for my operation. I will try and schedule some posts in whilst I am in dopey land but forgive me if i don’t comment straight away.
When my heads straight after the op I will be bringing you posts to inspire, educate and entertain you as before, but hopefully even better.
I will try and cover as many topics as I can.
I want to include videos and possibly add more podcasts again (this is still to be confirmed in my mind lol)
If you are a new reader or a returning one leave your blogs down below and I’ll go check them out 😘
Let’s take you back 10 years to the year 2009.
That January I had started the year with a hurting heart from being dumped just after Christmas. Turned out the bloke was a right dickhead.
I had lost a bit of weight in 2009 too after having my gallbladder out a few months before, so I was about 8 and a half stone.
Mum and me were also searching for a house as we had sold our house and needed to find one fast to move into. It was part of her divorce so decided to look for rented property. Just after Christmas that year we found it and moved in there in the Jan of 2010.
So now it’s the end of 2019 and wow what a year its been.
I started the year having my bladder out, and having a stoma, which has been quite a problematic thing so more surgery is needed soon.
I have found out who I really am, with my spirituality, my sexuality (I will fall in love with whoever I find attractive regardless of gender … Simple as that) and found out how strong I can be in shitty situations.
I’ve lost a friend I thought would always have my back, her loss. But also gained a really awesome friend she was in my year at school and I’m so glad to have her in my life as she makes me laugh so much and it feels like we’ve been good friends since like forever.
🎅🏼 Dear Santa,
I haven’t wrote to you in a while, I’m sorry. This time I’m not asking for much not like other years when I wanted half the Argos catalogue.
I can guarantee you it won’t cost you a penny and it’s as light as a feather so would be easy to deliver.
I don’t know where to start but I guess I’ll start right here.
Since last Christmas I have been rather under the weather. Spending time in hospital living the unknown. I didn’t ask for any of it but this I wanted to ask.
Please on Christmas Day or at the stroke of 12 for new year. Can you please bringbetter health, a permanent smile and the love of my life if you can find them.
I hope it’s not too much to wish for but I really think I deserve it. Plus I’ve been super good ( well 90%).So will say this to you in advance
Giving back at Christmas.
Me and my mum are so fortunate to have a roof over our head at the most celebrated time of the year.
Also to be lucky enough to have a big ass roast dinner. Some people don’t have any of these luxuries.
So this year we both decided to donate £19 to the Salvation Army so they can feed someone this Christmas day and keep them warm at the same time.
I prefer to give than receive at Christmas so this warmed my heart being charitable.
If you feel like you want to do the same have a nosey on
THE SALVATION ARMY WEBSITE
Do a random act of kindness this December.
I don’t know if I have mentioned in my health updates before but I have to go through another huge operation in exactly 2 months.
If you are a new reader in March of this year I had my bladder taken away. It was the bane of my life and was forever poorly with it. So I pee into a bag called a urostomy
Due to a 9 and a half hour op to get my bladder unstuck from my bowel and womb saving them before removing the useless bladder, the blood supply wouldn’t stretch up enough (they use part of your bowel to make a stoma for your wee)…crazy but clever.
So I have a stoma lower down that causes me problems still so the operation in January is to take away some of my tummy and flatten it out. I don’t have much of a muffin top but it’ll help in the long run..then they will resite my urostomy.
I have been told that it could be anything from 2 weeks to 9 weeks stay in hospital and to be prepared to maybe have a poo bag ( colostomy/ileostomy) as they are messing about with the intestine and bowel.
All the poor health and I still smile and stay positive because it’s all I know what to do in bad times.
So just a little part of my health journey and a little reflection.
Happy Friday 🌸
I put together a little video over on my youtube channel,
I aim to upload self-help videos on there once a week.
it would mean the world for you to take a nosey 🙂
let me know what you think
Til next time you beautiful people