Posted in Chronic illness, journaling, lifestyle, Positive thinking, reflection

I am someone who…

For old readers and new i thought this would be an easy read and since its baking hot today it’ll just be what comes to mind, as i love to blog and publish on the same day. like keeping it fresh…so here goes

I AM SOMEONE WHO

LOVES : Spending time with others who make me feel alive (happy, giggly and loved)

HATES : Backstabbers, gossips and fakery – they are just the worst

CANT: Go a day without eating either cheese or chocolate…oh or mayo

CAN: be there for those who need me and perk someone up when they are feeling down.

WILL NEVER: Give up when my illness is trying to irritate the hell out of me.

HAS: Been on a rough journey through life (bullying, sexual abuse, divorce of parents, lost my brother and chronic illness) and still i smile though it all.

CANT WAIT TO: Get my writing head back on and write and publish a book suitable for everyone – self help me thinks

HAS NEVER: Tried drugs, i mean each to their own but it doesn’t float my boat or appeal to me in any way.

WISHES: There was a cure for Cancer and Dementia as its two of the most cruelest diseases ever.

TRIED: To learn to drive but i had bad anxiety and just lost all confidence. Give me a road with nobody else driving on it and i’ll be fine.

USUALLY FORGETS: what i go upstairs for, then come back downstairs to then remember. so annoying.

WILL PROBABLY END UP: that old bird with a pink rinse and probably a perm.

IS THANKFUL FOR: all the thoughtful people i have in my life, the roof i have over my head and the things we all take for granted like our phones and laptops.

Anyway, there you have it, i guess you know me a little better than you did before.

Til next time

Posted in Chronic illness, Health, lifestyle, Personal

My Surgery

Most of my posts have been written in advance as I didn’t know how I was going to be feeling after my surgery. I usually write and publish my blog posts the same day but I had to think ahead.

So I thought I’d just write a short question and answer about my surgery and how I’m feeling

  1. What surgery did I have: I had my bladder removed it took 9 hours as they wanted to save my bowel and uterus as they were stuck together with adhesions.
  2. Did you have to have anything done to prep you for it: I had to drink these vile drinks for 2 days then alter my eating to softish food. It was a bit of a struggle but I did it.
  3. How long is recovery expected to be: some people are still recovering years later but I’ve been told I can’t lift anything heavier than a kettle for 6 months or more. My niece will just have to come cuddle up on the other side as she’s getting a lump at nearly 3 so I’m not up for doing myself damage.
  4. Are the staff nice: Overall they are all really nice and helpful and reassure me when I’m a bit scared
  5. What’s the hospital food like:to be honest because my appetite has gone a bit I’ve not ate very much at all. The food I have had is edible just not a variety that I see on the menu they bring round.
  6. What are you doing to pass the time: for the first couple of days / nearly a week I felt pretty rotten and been dosed up with painkillers. When I have been ok I’ve watched the TV they have in my room then the occasional Netflix film or YouTube video.
  7. Do you have to adapt to anything differently: yes plenty. I now have a bag stuck to my body that needs to be very well looked after and of course the stoma itself. It’ll all come with practise.
  8. A positive message for others facing surgery: keep a positive head, a strong mind will get you through anything.
Posted in lifestyle, Personal, words of wisdom, writing

Q and A Time

I absolutely love reading other people’s Q and A’s so I thought I’d do my own. Here are some questions I was asked…

Why did you start blogging?

Ever since I was a little girl I’ve been so in love with writing. So when I found out about blogging and others reading what you write I just had to join in this fab community. Never looked back.

What do you do to unwind?

I think putting on your pjs after a nice soak in the bath, curling up in a blanket with a hot water bottle and some eye candy on Tele is just my idea of unwinding.

What’s one thing you wish you could have told your younger self?

That no matter what life throws at you, don’t let it get you down. Be brave and plod on the best way you can.

How long have you and your best friend been best friends?

Oh my, we have been friends our whole life. Well I’m 8 months older than Jessica but our mums have been great friends even before we were both born. Our nicknames came 15 years later, hers is Trev and Mine is Bertie ūüôą

What’s one item of clothing that you will never wear again even if it’s come back in fashion?

Oh that is easy – A shell suit. I mean I adored my pink one at the time but to give my honest opinion… it was a hideous item of clothing and let’s hope they don’t come round a second time. Sorry mum lol.

Do you regret anything?

Yes I regret losing my virginity when I did with who I did. If only I could turn back the clock I’d definitely not have made that mistake. Generally I try and live with no regrets.

Man crush / Woman crush?

Oooo Colin Firth and Cameron Diaz. This hasnt changed for years.

One beauty product you can’t live without?

I’d say foundation simply because you can just put a bit of it on to give you a bit of a colour if you’re looking tired or a bit pale or need to conceal some spots.

Physically, what do you look for in a potential boyf?

I’ve always looked at eyes first they tell so much and a nice jaw line (yeah I know I’m a bit weird)

Your moto in life?

Live Laugh Love

Its something i think we all should do every day. Live life to its fullest, laugh, its the best medicine. Lastly love with all your heart.

I hope you enjoyed finding out a bit more about me.

Til next time my beauts xx

Posted in creativity, lifestyle, Personal

Hey Hey it’s a Q and A

I thought to finish off my week of blogging everyday I’d do a quick Q and A and then those of you that are new-ish followers can get to know me better

So let’s jump on in with the questions – some random some deep

  • Do you prefer to write with black or blue pen? Black it’s looks professional.
  • Would you rather live in the city or the country? The countryside it’s peaceful.
  • What was your favourite book as a child? The lion, witch and the wardrobe.
  • Which would you chose bath or shower? Bath, you can relax and unwind.
  • What’s your favourite item of clothing? My black suede ankle boots.
  • Do you have a favourite scent? Loverdose by Diesel – it smells bloody gorgeous.

  • Would you consider yourself a romantic? Very much so, love hugs and kisses.
  • Do you miss someone at the moment? Yes my brother who’s in heaven .
  • Have you met anyone famous? Yes Paul Hollywood 3 years ago, very yum.
  • Do you keep a diary or a journal? I keep both I love documenting stuff.
  • Describe yourself in one word? Talkative – since i could talk. My poor parents.
  • Which decade would you like to live in? The 60s, fab style and music.

  • What’s your favourite app to use? Pinterest of course, it’s so addictive.
  • What do you spend way too much money on? Skincare, want baby soft skin.
  • What event small or large changed your life? Being bullied made me stronger.
  • What is your dream career? A motivational speaker – share my experiences.
  • What’s your sexual orientation? I love who my heart chooses simple as that

If you reached here on a Sunday night without falling asleep well done you.

Roll on next week, hope yours is fab. I’ll see you in my next post.

Til then

Posted in lifestyle, Personal, Positivity

Get to know me

My heart is still very much with blogging but i love chatting, so i thought if i could do some videos to help and inspire.

I have uploaded a get to know me Q and A video today over on my YouTube channel.

They will be every Wednesday and will range from positivity to lifestyle and personal stories.

Feel free to subscribe over there if you enjoy what i have to say

Thanks for stopping by

Much love, Holzie xxx

Posted in lifestyle, Personal, Positivity, words of wisdom

A Random Q and A

it’s Saturday morning, it’s peeing down outside, how English…

Anyways I thought I would do a very laid back post today and find some questions from good old Pinterest¬†to answer. Some may be quite interesting others may be a bit random, its all a bit of fun so let’s begin.

What did you want to be when you were younger?

I wanted to be an author. I wanted to write from a young age and my dream has come true. My book is now on Amazon.

which friends character do you relate to the most?

I would have loved to of said Rachael but I am going to have to say Phoebe because of her randomness.¬† I like her can’t sing to save my life but give it a good try.

whats your favourite accent?

I absolutely love the Irish¬†accent. On a weekly basis, you would¬†hear me and my mum saying words in an Irish accent. I find it funny that they don’t really pronounce TH. I like the welsh too but an Irish man talking just melts me.

Do you have any scars?

I have 3 keyhole scars from my gallbladder removal 10 years ago, a big scar from my bladder reconstruction surgery from 3 years ago. oooo and from troublesome skin, I have some scarring on my cheeks. All scars have a story.

Favourite swear word?

I am going to say fuck. I have after all the years of writing fuck on a text message and it comes up duck I have it sorted…put it in your phone book. no number needed and your phone won’t get it mixed up. I don’t condone swearing all the time just when it’s needed.

Whats your guilty pleasure?

I think most of my friends and readers know I have a weakness for silver foxes¬†also even though he isn’t grey I love a bit of Colin Firth. Who doesn’t?

What are you wearing?

A pink¬†cropped hooded jumper, black leggings, Disney socks, an oversized scarf and a hot water bottle…yes I am wearing it. it’s never too far away.

Favourite boys and girls name?

I love the name Frankie¬†for a boy and Lola for a girl…i actually would change my name to¬†Lola if¬†I could.

Favourite movie ever

Bridget obviously….closely followed by Dirty Dancing and Now and Then…all very quotable I could watch them over and over again without getting bored.

A celebrity you can’t stand?

I can’t stand Michael Macintyre simply because I really don’t like a comedian who laughs at his own jokes before the audience has. Give me Mickey Flanagan any day.

Ever skinny dipped?

No never skinny dipped but I definitely wouldn’t say no…something about just being free and in the sea, it’s like a ginormous bath without the bubbles.

Do you like yourself?

I didn’t use to say 2 or 3 years back.I didn’t like looking in the mirror for too long and didn’t like my body shape but I am learning to love myself and all of my flaws. I am much more body positive¬†these days,

There you have it a get to know me in question form. I probably will do more of these at some point they get your mind thinking.

Have a fab weekend

Til next time…

hol

Posted in lifestyle, Personal, Positivity, social media, Technology, writing

Q AND A WITH SWEET ALLURE

Today’s feature on the blog is Tarnya from Sweet Allure

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I have been following Tarnya for some time and I was delighted when she wanted to come on my blog to do a Q and A.

so without further ado¬† let’s jump in with the Questions

1) What are your top 3 favourite books?

I couldn’t possibly pick just ONE book from the Harry Potter series, so I’ll have to say the entire series as my first choice!

Then I absolutely love Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk, it’s dark but I love all of his books.

Then lastly I’d have to say Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur, I read it recently and it really rekindled my love for poetry.

2) What is your favourite cruelty-free brand/product?

I love Nars, Charlotte Tilbury and The Ordinary for CF make up! Also Superdrug own brand is good and affordable too!

3) What did you want to be when you were asked at the start of school and has it changed?

I wanted to be a Vet when I was younger, but then I heard you had to put your arm up a cows bottom and changed my mind! I’ve never really known what I want to do, but I’m happy with my current job as a games tester in the Video Game Industry.

4) What are your favourite arty things to create?

I actually am obsessed with photography, it’s my favourite thing. I want to try and incorporate more photography with art like an art journal or scrapbook this year for fun.

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Thanks for reading

I’ll see you in my next post…

hol