Posted in lifestyle, Personal, social media, words of wisdom

It’s OK you can look away

Gone are the days where people simply sat down at a desk or a, table and wrote in a book… I mean I still do it but things started to consume our lives….and get in the way.

Making sure your phone is fully charged so you can scroll through the whole of Instagram liking pics of peoples lives instead of creating your own life.

Having your ego boosted by how many likes /loves and whatever Emoji you have. Sure it can make you happy temporarily but is it that important to you. Personally I just share and if I get comments and likes then I do it’s not a goal I aim for like some do.

Sometimes it even gets in the way of relationships. Do you ever think would you be able to spend a week say with your significant other with no social media interaction. You love them more I’d hope to put it aside for the time you spend with them.

Social media isn’t going anywhere soon so do yourself a favour and look away for a bit. Don’t consume this thing we call life by obsessing over someone else’s.

Posted in journaling, lifestyle, Personal, reflection

I miss…

Things that are missing from my life that I wish weren’t.

I miss not being invited out, its nice to he asked even if you don’t feel well enough it’s the thought.

I miss those no longer here anymore, my big brother especially. All I have is photos and memories in my mind.

I miss being able to go out on road trips with my dad. Why did dementia have to take that away?

I miss being able to work and have a bit more of a busier day and something to talk/moan about lol

I miss being able to walk to town, or anywhere for that matter. A little bit around the house is as much as I get to do on good days, the rest is in the wheelchair.

With all of these things missing I always make the best of every day because I just can’t let it get me down, as I’d be no good to anyone.

Its not dwelling, just observing.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Posted in lifestyle, Personal, sexuality, words of wisdom

Love conquers all

Here’s me a single pringle

(I nearly hate that saying as much as people say ‘off on me holibobs’)

I believe that the right person is out there for everyone. No matter how long you’re waiting.

Whether it’s a man or a woman I really don’t mind as long as I’m loved and I love them in return.

I totally don’t think there should be labels such as straight, gay, bisexual, queer, pansexual and any others I’ve missed. It should just be I’m in love with this person, end of.

Its been a while since I’ve been in a relationship but hopefully someone will see what a fab human being I am and literally sweep me up off my feet.

If you are reading this and are single, please don’t worry. Go with what your heart tells you, you will know when the time is right.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

PS: I believe I’ve probably wrote a post like this but it is just a reminder đź’•

Posted in Chronic illness, journaling, lifestyle, Positive thinking, reflection

I am someone who…

For old readers and new i thought this would be an easy read and since its baking hot today it’ll just be what comes to mind, as i love to blog and publish on the same day. like keeping it fresh…so here goes

I AM SOMEONE WHO

LOVES : Spending time with others who make me feel alive (happy, giggly and loved)

HATES : Backstabbers, gossips and fakery – they are just the worst

CANT: Go a day without eating either cheese or chocolate…oh or mayo

CAN: be there for those who need me and perk someone up when they are feeling down.

WILL NEVER: Give up when my illness is trying to irritate the hell out of me.

HAS: Been on a rough journey through life (bullying, sexual abuse, divorce of parents, lost my brother and chronic illness) and still i smile though it all.

CANT WAIT TO: Get my writing head back on and write and publish a book suitable for everyone – self help me thinks

HAS NEVER: Tried drugs, i mean each to their own but it doesn’t float my boat or appeal to me in any way.

WISHES: There was a cure for Cancer and Dementia as its two of the most cruelest diseases ever.

TRIED: To learn to drive but i had bad anxiety and just lost all confidence. Give me a road with nobody else driving on it and i’ll be fine.

USUALLY FORGETS: what i go upstairs for, then come back downstairs to then remember. so annoying.

WILL PROBABLY END UP: that old bird with a pink rinse and probably a perm.

IS THANKFUL FOR: all the thoughtful people i have in my life, the roof i have over my head and the things we all take for granted like our phones and laptops.

Anyway, there you have it, i guess you know me a little better than you did before.

Til next time

Posted in journaling, memories, writing

My prom story – Throwback

I left school hell of a long time ago…. 2002 to be exact.

Round about this time was the last few exams and then prepping for the big event which was PROM.

So I had been beat up by a group of girls a month before and mum and me had bought my dress in a charity shop for ÂŁ17.50 and i really felt special in it but because my confidence had been knocked severely it wasn’t quite the exciting night I had hoped for.

I was a bag of nerves, that feeling of oh my god I’m gonna barf on me pretty dress but luck was on my side. That was before we had even picked up my mates.

Got there unscathed and smiles when I saw all my mates.

Photos were taken outside the venue, this one above was me and one of my besties at school Soph. I didn’t have an ounce of make up on as my face still hurt from getting beat up but my sis did my hair really lovely so I half felt like a princess.

I probably stayed for half the night and then dad had to come pick me up because I started to panic.

I can actually say I went though and it’s good to look back at pics of everyone else looking gorgeous too.

This was our last day of school with my bestie Jessica aka Trev. Still besties now and I’m blessed that we still are just as close.

Thought since most year 11s will be going to their proms this month it’ll be good to chat about mine.

Thanks for stopping by

Til next time

Posted in creativity, lifestyle, Personal, Positivity, words of wisdom, writing

The Plan

I want to accomplish a goal this year, something that won’t just make me happy but will help others too.

So if you didn’t know i wrote a book a few years ago,my real life story called BULLIED FOR BEING ME (click to get a copy its ÂŁ1.62 at the mo for the paper back). It gets the word out of how mean bullies can be and how back then i coped. It was pretty tough to write it as i had to relive it in my head but it is so rewarding when you have something in paperback to be proud of.

If i was to write another book i am tore between doing a self help book or poetry book as both would make me ecstatically happy to do.

I also would love to be an agony aunt, i would love to have a page online or on the blog to dedicate to helping with problems of any topic, nothing is ever too embarrassing for me to delve into but i have no idea how to go about that one. If you do please click on my twitter or Instagram below and inbox me your ideas.

I have so much to give to others because that’s just the type of person i am. So lets hope i can achieve my goal.

Posted in lifestyle, mental health, Personal, Positivity

Beat the January blues

I’m speaking from past experiences but doesn’t January just put you out of sorts. Literally at the stroke of midnight New Year’s Eve and bam đź’Ą you’re in another month…another year nonetheless and I know some people just hate change. It’s like you are expected to put on a happy face and celebrate…

Don’t be ashamed, it’s ok to feel underwhelmed.

Here are 10 things to do to help you feel a little more happier if only a little bit

  • Write down 5 things that immediately bring a smile to your face
  • Eat your favourite meal – whether you cook it or order it in
  • Look through photos that hold great memories
  • Give yourself a little pampering – you’re worth it
  • Give your bedroom/living space a makeover
  • Phone a friend and just chat – it’s good to talk
  • Make yourself a playlist of music that gets your heart singing as well as you
  • Order yourself a few items of clothing, It’s surprising how much of a difference it can make to your mood
  • Get writing. Whatever is on your mind write it down, it’s s great form of self reflection and therapy.
  • Plan a day/evening out with a friend or family member. It’ll do you good to let your hair down.

Look at January like this it’s half way through the month  now. You’ve made it this far. So take it day by day and appreciate the littlest things that do make you grin.

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Til next time my sweet ones