My Story About Love

Let me start off by saying that this is a little in-depth account of my love life… you can see how its kind of panned out over the years.

Ok so I seriously thought I was going to marry Chesney Hawkes, I used to change the words to ‘I am your one and only, please will you marry me? Oh cringe. I was only 7 or 8 I was still a little girl.  Michael Owen was another love of mine, I had a giant poster on my wall of him from my Shout magazine. Least I could go to bed happy.

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I soon went off the idea of becoming Mrs Hawkes or Owen and looked forward to playing kiss chase at lunchtimes at primary school. That was when I kissed David. He was my first crush. He was short-ish like me and I went out with him briefly at year 6 camp. That didn’t last long…he moved on to my friend instead.

Throughout school I had a few boyfriends. One called Tom and another Jamie. I foolishly lost my virginity to one of them. Through peer pressure may I add. I also experienced my first girl kiss too, i had saw it on the TV and thought i want to see what it feels like. I knew that I couldn’t talk about it as I was already getting picked on for my skin too. So that was just brushed under the carpet and kept hush hush.

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I left school and didn’t have my first proper boyfriend until I was 18. He was just like me he didn’t take life too seriously and we could just act ourselves without thinking we weren’t impressing each other. We met at work when we worked in a bar so when we weren’t working we would spend as much time together as possible. Just after a year he decided he wanted to go back to his Ex so that was a slight kick to the curb.

For a few years I thought I would just go clubbing and see who I could pull. Don’t frown on me I bet you’ve done it in the past. Some were never to be seen again and some were and still are friends. Just because you don’t want to pursue anything any further there’s no reason to not just be friends.

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Just before my 21st birthday I took Richard back. I guess there was still parts of him I missed and we just fell back where we left off. But during the 18 months we were together he totally changed. Like overnight, he started to be quite controlling and if I wanted to go anywhere in the car he would demand I paid for petrol. I didn’t like the person he had become and I had to get out there and then. Not seen him to speak to since.

I was in the nightclub a few months later and me and this guy Jake had caught each others eye. We swapped numbers at the end of the night and then in one text he said I am off to Spain for a week we can arrange to meet up when I get back. I wasn’t holding out much hope. He was true to his word and we went out on a date, saw each other every night for 2 weeks when he said would you like to be my girlfriend. It lasted 3 months. I was so happy when I was with him, the only thing was he would buy me everything and I didn’t feel comfortable being spoilt like that. He finished it quite abruptly when I had packed to go away with him and I phoned up to asked what time he’d be coming to get me, he said I won’t.Just like that it was over.

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From that day on I looked at love differently. I thought that it didn’t matter who you fell for, male or female you would find someone who appreciated you one day and they would make you smile endlessly and your heart would beat that little bit faster because of them.

I haven’t found my forever someone yet. I have been on dates with men and women and I guess the right person will come along when I least expect it. Just as long as i am not single forever.

Thanks for reading until the end… My hand hurts now from typing 🙂

hol

How To Get A Mental Cleanse

Lately I have realised there is no point in clogging up your life with things that just add more stress and anxiousness to what really can be a more zen like kind of life. 

I have came up with a list of things that you can start doing to help get your mental health looking and feeling more like you got your shit in order to put it quite frankly.

SELF CARE

  • Go to bed 30 minutes earlier than you normally would. Do this for a few weeks and you’ll soon be in a routine.
  • Journal for 15 minutes about whatever comes to mind. Its for your eyes only so don’t hold back.
  • Make weekly goals and do daily gratitude journalling. It will make you appreciate things more.
  • Reward yourself with a pampering or a nice bubble bath. Giving yourself some well deserved me time.

DIET AND EXERCISE

  • Meditate for 5 mins in the morning and a little longer in the evening if you can to keep your mind clear and allow yourself to unwind.
  • Find a workout you enjoy and do it regularly. Yoga, Pilates or Tai Chi are less strenuous and focus on the here and now.
  • Look at your diet and add some goodness into it whether its fruit, veggies, nuts and seeds or just drinking more water your body will thank you for it.
  • Enjoy every bite you take and appreciate what you’re eating. 

DIGITAL CLEANSE

  • Remove all unwanted texts from your phone unless you really need to keep them its just using up space. That goes for emails too. 
  • Try to not go on social media first thing in the morning, take this time to be productive. Leave it until at least 11am before you click on it.
  • Unfollow people who don’t inspire you.
  • Don’t use your phone at mealtimes and out with friends you’re meant to be enjoying the moment not dictating your outing word for word.

POSITIVITY

  • Give yourself a compliment, and compliment others too.
  • Make sure you laugh daily -My favourite quote is live,laugh, love.
  • Make a Pinterest board of positive quotes and affirmations.
  • Do a little random act of kindness. It’s always nice to make someone’s day.

Putting these into practice everyday will change your life completely and you’ll look at it in a totally different light. It will become part of you before you know it and you won’t be getting stressed right out because you will have these helpful tools to keep you smiling. 

ITS MY BODY

Even though mine is slightly broken at the moment I wanted to get my views across about women and their bodies.

  • When someone says you’re beautiful they aren’t lying
  • Everyone has rolls when they bend over 
  • Stretch marks are on pretty much every second Woman don’t be ashamed.
  • Be more body confident it’s so attractive.
  • Everyone has one boob bigger than the other
  • It’s not wrong to be vain it’s called Self love.

Remember these:

  • You can wear what you want and wear it with pride. If it makes you feel good. Your body your rules.
  • The size of your waist doesn’t measure your worth.
  • Don’t let anyone give your body the attention when they haven’t had permission.

and last but not least 

Your body hears everything your mind says about it so think positive.

 
           

A NEW SERIES FEATURING YOU

I have been blogging a little over a year now. I absolutely love documenting about the things I like and things that go on in my life. I want to add something different.

I want to include some of the fabulous bloggers of this world. The ones who I love to see online and enjoy every post they write and also newbies that I’ve only just discovered. 

I will either do a Q and A with a different blogger every week or just write a little piece about them. We shall see how it goes.

So watch this space and I hope to bring you more people to follow on their journeys.

Alternatively leave your blog link down below and I’ll be in touch.

Til next time 

GIRL QUOTES: INTERNATIONAL DAY OF THE GIRL 

I only found out a few days ago there was an International Day For Girls.

I know we have International Woman’s Day at the beginning of the year I believe that girls should be recognised too as being a powerful gender.

I found some pretty awesome quotes that show we are strong females no matter what age we are.img_1500

 There is no need to strive for perfection just be your amazing self

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Making a stand with other girls is much better than fighting against them.

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Never give up on your childhood dreams, trust me, mine has come true.

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Speak up and don’t let your thoughts and ideas be silenced.

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This Little verse reminds you that you are and always will be enough.

Thanks for stopping by

til next time…

hol

Words of wisdom: Remember this

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A few words of wisdom from me to you….

I want you to remember these 6 things this week if nothing else

  • If something made you laugh until your sides hurt write it down in your phone notes so you can look back on it and have a giggle to yourself again.
  • Go to your favourite bands concert. Have a drink but don’t get stupidly drunk you want to remember the epic time you had and get all the words right as your singing don’t you?
  • In life take plenty of pictures. Whatever catches your eye. Just click away. That way later on when you scroll through your camera roll you’ll remember everything about that day, good or bad.

  • Difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations. Every path you take will take you on a journey and it’s up to you to make it through with strength and determination and end up right where you want to be – in your own little paradise.
  • Some talk to you in their free time and some free their time to talk to you. Learn the difference. Who is true to you and who is not.
  • One of the biggest lessons in life is to realise it’s ok to feel shitty. Just make sure you don’t stay there. Find your happy place and get back to it.

Thanks for stopping by….

See you in the next post